Comments on from IF to when: new (old) patient

kelley mac - yer makin' me cry:) you are right...

2012-01-05T14:47:13.480-06:00

kelley mac - yer makin' me cry:) you are right on.

thank you. this is my first time reading your blo...

2012-01-03T22:39:31.327-06:00

thank you. this is my first time reading your blog and it really rang true and made me feel a little less lonely.

“So, for better or for worse, this is who I am. I ...

2011-12-13T20:00:26.073-06:00

“So, for better or for worse, this is who I am. I am a painful, broken image of the woman I once barely was”

And its because of this whole wretched, numbing experience that you are the most powerful, loving, protective, and intuitive mother that you could have never been had your path been easier. You will provide your child with the gift of wisdom and tolerance. The tolerance to

Realized I never did comment when I read this last...

2011-12-10T18:55:55.913-06:00

Realized I never did comment when I read this last week. I want you to know that your writing touched me. Thank you for sharing.

My fav is that even when I go to the SPA for a mas...

2011-12-10T11:55:06.662-06:00

My fav is that even when I go to the SPA for a massage or facial or whatever thing that is supposed to be indulgent and relaxing, I have to fill out a form that asks if I am pregnant.

No. I am not pregnant.

Hugs, Katie. I can NOW honestly say that I am THA...

2011-12-09T11:25:36.299-06:00

Hugs, Katie. I can NOW honestly say that I am THANKFUL for my infertility! If it weren't for it, I wouldn't have these 2 beautiful daughters!

You will get through this. I know how strong you are!

I've felt all of this so many times it's n...

2011-12-08T23:30:49.206-06:00

I've felt all of this so many times it's not even funny. Although, I'm going to have to steal your binder idea. Right now I just haul everything around in a manilla envelope. Sometimes I wonder if they start thinking "oh great" the minute I walk in the door. Like I'm the only one in the world with this complicated history and heartbreak. So if nothing else, thanks for

I'm with you! I just had my annual physical a...

2011-12-08T18:53:43.170-06:00

I'm with you! I just had my annual physical and went through the same paperwork. I sat there in the waiting room staring at my paperwork for the first 5 minutes wondering where to start.

You're phrase says it best, " broken image of the woman I once barely was". It fits.

Mine aren't as much as yours, but I can begin ...

2011-12-08T17:19:18.913-06:00

Mine aren't as much as yours, but I can begin to sympathize. I wish I could just go back to writing "tonsilectomy at age 5" and move on with my life.

Yeah. Can I admit that even as I was giving birth ...

2011-12-08T16:51:03.370-06:00

Yeah. Can I admit that even as I was giving birth to Smudgie, it still hurt when the staff doctor asked if this was my first pregnancy and I had to say it was my third. I don't want to erase those other pregnancies and those hard months. But I wish they didn't hurt so much to think about.

Completely can identify with your post. I really m...

2011-12-08T15:14:44.236-06:00

Completely can identify with your post. I really miss the 'pre-IF' me. I'd like to go back to her. She was a nice lady with so much hope.

My appointments and issues over the last few month...

2011-12-08T12:06:55.260-06:00

My appointments and issues over the last few months really stirred the pot for me as well. I feel confident about the direction of adoption, but crappy about the scars. I see them as two different things at this point. I feel like Ob's will always bring back those scars. (And just like you now I need to go for pain even though I moved to adoption!)

Everything feels like a minefield. You go to give...

2011-12-08T11:41:42.541-06:00

Everything feels like a minefield. You go to give blood, doing a good thing, blah, blah, community spirit, saving a life, blah, blah.
Have you ever been pregnant?

Does a chemical pregnancy count? How about the miscarriage at 10 weeks? What level of detail do they need to determine my fitness for donating blood?

I so wish I could unlearn what I learned going through

Wow. I identify with your pain, your emptiness, an...

2011-12-08T11:36:01.235-06:00

Wow. I identify with your pain, your emptiness, and your scars. I feel like I could have written this post. Just the other day, I found an old private blog I had started back in 2009. We had just begun the journey of TTC, and the old "me" was so excited. It was all new. The current "me" cried, because it has been two years, two surgeries, and a lot of pain, and there still isn

Yep. Love these. Love to recite all of the gory ...

2011-12-08T11:32:29.063-06:00

Yep. Love these. Love to recite all of the gory details about surgeries, D&Es, babies that we thought were going to make it, etc. Towards the end, I got a twisted sense of amusement to watch facial expressions and gauge if they were able to remain stoic. Shows just how fucked up I am I guess.

I hate that you have to experience this. It's just an awful, awful feeling.