Thursday, January 17, 2013

strange times

I'm in a weird place right now. There are things going on in our lives that I can't blog about yet because I don't want to make it public. So I'm not quite sure what TO write. All I can say is that we are in the process of trying to make some big decisions, and that's what I haven't written too much lately about family life other than writing my regular, monthly updates on K.

I also feel as if people aren't visiting here as much. Actually, I know they aren't, because I know my readership is dropped. I'm curious: how much of this relates to the fact that I write about K? Or does it have to do with my lack of personal stories lately? I don't know. (Don't worry. I'm not expecting answers to these questions. I'm just sort of stream-of-conscious writing at this point.)

Which brings me to the fact that I'm not even sure where I'm going with this post. Kind of pointless, right? :) I guess what I'd like to say is bear with me as I tiptoe my way around how to blog - or rather what to blog - at this point in my journey. That's all. Hopefully you'll stick with me while I navigate these waters.

25 comments:

Michaela said...

You have been my lifeline...I think you balance the posts and show the utmost compassion to those of us still in the trenches.

You and K give me hope and inspiration...I hope that you know your readers are still with you and that when you are ready to post about any aspect of your life...we will still be here!

Sending you hugs as you work through this...

aryanhwy said...

I come to your blog more often because of the posts about K!

Rebecca said...

I'll definitely continue to stick with you! I try to read as much as possible and love to hear about K! Commenting...that's been more difficult.

Hope these new things are positive ones!

Eskimo_Kisses_4_U said...

Good luck navigating the waters you're in. I enjoy reading your blog and the love for your little one always makes me smile.

It Is What It Is said...

I visit here every time you post (even if I don't always comment).

Hmmm, it sounds foreboding whatever it is that is going on in your life. I hope you have the support you need whatever it is.

Dawn said...

Hope you big new is good news! As always, I'll be reading! Commenting is much harder right now!

Jen said...

I'll stick by :)

learning patience having hope said...

Thinking of you, hope all will be well soon.

missohkay said...

My readership dropped after baby arrived too, which I found sort of understandable yet kind of offensive. Less potential for IF/adoption drama leads to fewer readers I guess. I joined PAIL - despite the initial middle school dramaz with it - and have found new readers (and new people that I love reading). Having this subset of the community in the same place I'm in has been great. Looking forward to hearing more thoughts on your big possible changes once you're in a position to share more publicly :)

dspence said...

Wanted you to know that you still have readers who want to hear it all: the updates, the baby stuff, the everyday stuff, the everything. We're listening and praying for you.

Logical Libby said...

OKay, now I'm curious. I hope it's good news.

Also, I'm not around anywhere these days. I think it's "blog malaise."

April said...

I think its a totally normal place to be in as a blogger. Especially after you have kids and especially after IF. You feel guilty if all your blog is about is your kid but at the same time that's what you want to share about. Its also hard when you want to share something but it is so public that you can't. Give your self a break momma! :) It's all good and post about what you want when you have the time too. That's the other tough thing is keeping up with it after baby.

lparsons15 said...

I'm here, I don't always comment..but I will always be here!

Elizabeth said...

Yes, I also hope your news is good news and that all is well with you all. I continue to read and enjoy your blog. :)

shutterbugwife said...

I'm here too! I still visit but don't comment as much. From someone still struggling with infertility, the K posts don't bother me at all. If I'm having a down day, I may skip a post but I usually still read.

Sarah said...

I have struggled over the last few months over what to write about when I can't write about what is actually going on. It's a hard balance, but I knew there were other things happening worth writing about...

I have noticed my readers have dropped lately too. I wonder if it's across blogs in general?

Secret Sloper said...

I'm also here, if not always commenting. I wonder how many others are in the same boat, on your blog and mine. My readership dropped significantly after I had Smudgie, but I also post much, much less frequently. And I haven't sought out new blogs in a long time, mostly because of time constraints, but also because I've tried to focus on my off-line life over the last 15 months.

But when I had my most recent miscarriage, a lot of voices returned, which was very sweet. So I bet there are more people around than you think.

And I hope the news is good news!

Lollipop Goldstein said...

I'm here -- and also noticed your quietness on MFP last night. Sending a hug because it sounds like big things are underfoot.

someday-soon said...

I'm not going anywhere =) Can't wait to hear about the potential changes...

Denver Laura said...

I'll go ahead and "out" you. THIS is what you really want to publish but just can't right now...

Joey told me not to. But I did it anyway. I bought a lotto ticket. I didn't think much about it at first. I just threw it in K's diaper bag after a quick trip to the store. But when the news said there was a local winner, I decided to check those numbers.

Yup. Exact match. Every one.

So what's next? Well, I contacted a lawyer who said not to tell anybody yet. We're in the process of getting 3 financial advisers, you know, to diversify. The lawyer said we shouldn't contact the media yet as we're still getting security in place.

So that's my big news. Sorry to leave you hanging, but that's it.

Denver Laura said...

Posted above with all sarcasm...

I like hearing stories about K.

I also have some big things in my life that I can't quite post about right now. Sometimes I wish I had a more anonymous space to tell them to the world...

Trisha said...

Hope these are good things! I love what you write!

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M said...

I'm still here!

Katie said...

@Laura: I WISH it were winning the lotto!!!