Sunday, December 23, 2012


Hi, everyone! Sorry I'm a couple of days late to the ICLW party. The holidays are always crazy around our house, and this year is no exception.

My name is Katie and you can gather most of the details of my journey from the pages above marked "My Story" and "Timeline." But in short, after over four years of infertility, my husband and I adopted our daughter this year. She was born in July, and we just finalized her adoption at the end of November. I refer to her as "K" (or sometimes "Miss K") on this blog to protect her privacy.

Right now I feel like I'm still sometimes trying to transition from infertility to motherhood. Baby announcements can still be incredibly painful for me - especially ones for second and third children. This is because we've decided that K will be our only child. Not only do I want to be sure we have the means to provide for her financially, but I also don't know if I can endure another round of trying for a baby (adoption or IF treatments) in a physical, emotional, or mental sense. However, it doesn't mean that I don't mourn the loss of my dreams for a big family.

But I won't end this on a down note. I'm truly excited for the next few days and the opportunity to celebrate our baby girl's first Christmas. We've waited years for this moment and it's finally here. So I'm going to enjoy this time and everything about it! I'm also taking this time to think about all of those still in the trenches, waiting for their miracle. I don't forget what it's like and I most definitely never will.

That's it for now. Welcome, and hopefully I'll have something more profound to write in the next few days. :)


jAllen said...

Hi from ICLW! My husband and I are both only children and we are hoping we can have one. I think there are a lot of advantages to being an only child and parenting an only child. I wouldn't have wanted it any other way! #58

Stefanie Blakely said...

I have been a LOUSY commenter, but please know that I am reading!! It's my New Year's Resolution to step up my support in blogland!! xoxo, and Merry Christmas!!

Andy said...

Hi from ICLW! Congratulations on your LO. I can only imagine that the bridge from IF to parenthood is difficult, but I suspect that it will get easier for you. I wish you lots of luck!

Slynn said...

Merry Christmas, and enjoy this special time as your daughter's first Christmas. Thanks for remembering those of us in the trenches :)

Unknown said...

Dear Katie,

I came across your blog as I was searching the internet. My husband and I adopted a beautiful baby three and half years ago. She was born in my hearts and my husband and I were the first to hold her in the hospital besides the nurses/doctors. We fell in love the moment we saw her and all of those years of the ups and downs of infertility made sense to us during that exact moment.

We have decided not adopt again and have come to terms with having only child. That doesn’t take away from the fact that I always wanted a bigger family. Now my sweet daughter ”E” is the funniest, sweetest little person. I am truly blessed to be her Mom. Looking back, I’m so glad my life turned out the way it did because I can’t imagine my life without “E”.

Over the weekend, I began to feel like am I the only one?

Reading your blog, provided a moment of peace to me during this holiday season, so thank you. It will always be hard not to have a bigger family, but I am so thankful to have “E”, my husband, and my dog.  We have a small family full of love! Hope you and your family has a great holiday! Lisa

Jamie said...

Happy holidays and happy ICLW! I hope your Christmas with your daughter was everything that you dreamed it would be!

Amber said...

I'm so happy for you getting to celebrate your first Christmas with your little girl. Hope it was a good one!