I'm obsessed with the Casey Anthony trial.
You already know that if you follow me on Twitter. Some people have actually unfollowed me for the commentary on the trial. (Which is amusing. I don't unfollow you because you talk about breast feeding 24/7. So please, spare me.)
I know, it's weird. I tease people for watching shows like 16 and Pregnant and Teen Mom wondering, "Why on earth do you torture yourself by watching that?" And here I am. Watching, listening, reading about, and talking about a mother who (allegedly) murdered her child and dumped the body. Why would I put myself through that?
To start, I live about 10 miles away from where Caylee's body was found. I work even closer. This trial is all that people talk about in Orlando, because it's by far the worst thing that's ever happened here. Yes, murders happen all the time in this city. But it's for drugs or it's gang related. It's not a mother killing her baby. Not like this, anyway. In a sense, it reminds me of the Laci Peterson case: an otherwise "normal" city disturbed by a complete sociopath.
So a lot of it has to do with geography. If I lived in Montana, I'm sure my interest in the case would be minimal. But I drive past the area where Caylee was found every day to and from work. And do you know what I think about when I drive past it? How things could have been different. How that little girl deserved a better life. And how badly I want to see justice for her death.
One of my best friends asked me last week how I could watch this. She asked if it was hard. Yes, it's hard, and I know that I can easily turn my cheek and look the other way. I can easily turn off the newsfeed and go about my business. Yet I can't. I have to know what happens. I have to know if there will be punishment for that little girl's death. I have to know what happens to Casey. I can't understand what she did. No one will ever understand. But this trial is the closest answer I get to the question, "Why?"
Why did a sweet little girl like Caylee have to die? How can a mother take her daughter's own life, and then act like nothing ever happened?
And why do people like Casey become mothers instead of us?