We are going to our first adoption class this month.
I'm a bit nervous; the person speaking at this class is the person who will be performing our home study later this year. While I've felt comfortable speaking with her over the phone and communicating via e-mail, I am nervous about Joey and I making a good first in-person impression. After all, this person gets the largest say in whether we should or should not be parents.
My head hurts. This is the first migraine I've had on the pill. I'll be tracking my migraines to make sure they don't get out of control. If they start to become more frequent, I will contact my doctor.
Despite my mood swings, I feel like I need to give this pill time to work. How much time is enough, though? A month? Two? I will say that I'm thankful for no breakthrough bleeding. Yet.
I thought a lot about everyone's response to my post about support. It was interesting to read the different interpretations about that post. But I guess what I was trying to get to is that silence does hurt. At least for me. I know that some people feel differently, but it hurts that some people who were there are the beginning aren't there any longer or who are there a whole lot less. Blog comments didn't spawn that post, to be honest. Because most of the relationships I'm struggling with are the ones that didn't start here. It's everything else. The e-mails or other personal communications I've developed with some of you are no longer.
I guess that's what happens when you're the last infertile standing. I can't expect people to stand here and hold my hand when they are 10 or 10,000 miles down the road. I need to get over being so damn sensitive about it. Emotions are sort of my weak points these days.
We have so many things that need to go to Goodwill that currently live in the nursery room. Does someone want to come over and help us move all of it? :)
Also, we found our dream nursery fabric. How this will evolve into a bedding set, I'm not quite sure. But we have some time to figure it out.
There is a, um, "positive possibility" in the air right now. That's pretty much all I can say about it at this point. (And no, it has nothing to do with pregnancy.) But if anyone wants to send vibes so that this becomes a positive reality, we won't turn that down.