Friday, June 18, 2010

six months down

Can you believe this year is almost half over already? Six months ago I remember standing in my mom's kitchen with Joey while he popped open a bottle of champagne to ring in the new year. Now that year is has become six months. For the first time since then, I feel like things are finally starting to settle down:

The saga of the lump. Technically this is still ongoing, but at least we know there isn't cancer growing in there (or that's what the radiologists and the breast surgeon say). I found out late last week that I don't have to go in for a follow-up appointment for at least another three months. I will still have a(nother) ultrasound in December. Until then, they have ask me to, um, massage my breast. No, I'm not joking. I sat on the phone for five minutes AT WORK while the nurse described how I should be touching myself over the phone. Lovely. Thank you for stripping away the last of my dignity and throwing it to the wolves.

"Carl." Oh, good ol' Carl. Do you remember him? Well, he was going to be the topic of my second post on Monday--the one I never got to because I decided he wasn't even worthy of his own post. But I'm happy to say that he's been relatively quiet, other than the incident which occurred Sunday night. Let's just say that Carl and his girlfriend were going at it. And by going at it, I don't mean in a Marvin Gaye "Let's Get It On" type of way. I mean in a Mike Tyson-Evander Holyfield showdown type of way. This just goes to show that when you think someone couldn't possibly be a bigger loser, they surprise you.

Infertility. Even though we didn't (and won't) achieve our goal of having a baby this year, I think we made progress. We did the right thing by changing fertility clinics in January and finally got some definitive diagnoses. The last week has been the biggest breakthrough: I am proud to write that I haven't researched anything dealing with IVF once. Part of this is because we aren't at that step yet financially. Another is because, for now, I'm content with taking a little break from Western medicine. I love my RE. I really do, and he did an amazing job with my surgery. But no matter how many times I'm cut open, he can't fix me for good. Maybe Eastern medicine can't either, but at least now I'll know that I've tried everything.

This weekend should be fun. I have an acupuncture appointment tomorrow at noon. The herbs are going well, I feel more alert when I take them. The rest of the weekend will be spent hanging out with family and friends. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Remember to hug your husbands on Father's Day.

18 comments:

The Domestic Princess said...

Clarity is always good when it comes to infertilty! Have a great weekend

Crossed Fingers said...

I know! I cannot believe it's already half way through the year! Crazy!

My sister actually discovered a lump too - they are going to remove it after she has her baby - they know it's not cancer but they want it out anyway.

I hope the new RE's office turns out to be the correct choice for you and Joey! :)

Stephanie said...

I definitely can't believe its almost the end of June 2010. CRAZY! Time flies when you're having fun or dealing with IF ;) Ugh, Carl. How's that poor pup doing? Poor thing. Hope yall have a fabulous weekend!!!

Rach said...

I know, hard to believe 2010 is almost halfway over.

Yay to no google research!!

Marla Z said...

Glad the herbs are working for you. My acu guy asked me if I felt warm inside while I was taking them (and NOT that kind of warm, either- gross!). And I was like, yeah, it's hot tea. I was warm. Thanks for asking. Lol!

And I forgot about Carl! Well, at least he's behaving most of the time.

Happy week-end!

Leslie said...

I too can not believe the year is almost half over. I am glad things are settling down for you. I hope that things continue to settle and you are able to have a fabulous summer. I hops acupuncture helps you as much as it helped me.

Rebecca said...

Wow, that is hard to believe. Time just zooms by. A major "ugh" to Carl. Sounds pretty annoying.

The real question is: we you following the nurses instructions while you were on the phone in your office? And,if so,do you work in a cubicle? :)

Pre-Heated Oven said...

Ohhhhh Carl. What a guy. So sorry you still have to put up with him, even if it's just once in awhile.
Though my acupunturist is a total idiot, he did give me some herbs to take when I feel a cold or flu coming on. They really work! I totally have faith in Eastern medicine.

Kim said...

As you know I am a huge advocate of Eastern medicine....I think eastern and western can compliment each other, there msut be a way to strike up the perfect balance.

Keep on enjoying your time until your next RE appointment...its priceless to have no IF cares. Big Kudos on no googling, I personally know what a HUGE accomplishment that is! xoxoxoxox

JC said...

Hope you have a great weekend! Have fun at acu tomorrow!

Dear Diary said...

Thank you for the Congratulations! I hope you have a great weekend. Big Hug!

Hayley said...

I can't wait to hang out with you and Joey tomorrow night! Can I hug him for Father's Day? :)

S.I.F. said...

I think I hit the same point with Western medicine. I decided a few weeks ago that no matter what happens with my IVF, I'm not treating my endo with western medicine anymore. None of it worked, and everything came with so many side effects. I'm throwing my faith in acupuncture from here on out! :)

Astrid said...

Wow, I hadn't really thought of it as half over until you put it that way just now. I'm glad things are starting to settle down for you - you certainly have been put through the ringer. And I think you're on the right track.

I'm in awe of your ability to not research. Awe, I tell you. I wish I could learn that trick - I bet it involves keeping your life balanced and busy in addition to some self-restraint, both of which I'm sure you have in spades. Keep up the great approach and good attitude. You're an inspiration.

Erin said...

I cannot believe this year is half over. How is that possible?

So, I'm just curious, but what is the point of massaging the lump? Does it have some sort of medical benefit?

Mrs.Wood2126 said...

I see that you are starting accupuncture.... please post updates on your feelings regarding it, I have been considering it myself!

Trisha said...

So glad you have a peace with where you are now! That's such a great feeling! I can't believe half of the year has gone by already!

Conceptionally Challenged said...

Taking a break from IF and a fun weekend sound good!