This is a baby-related post. Please feel free to skip if you are not comfortable reading.
Well, we survived the first day of daycare. I did fine dropping her off until it was time to say good-bye and she smiled at me from ear to ear. That broke my heart. I waited until I got to the car, and then I sobbed for most of the way to work. Luckily, yesterday went by fast because I had so much to do. (I still do, seeing as how no one has done my job for the last three months!) K was incredibly tired by the time I got home. She hardly napped, but she did eat well and they said she was in a happy mood all day.
This morning's drop-off went much better. It was actually "picture day" at school. And for whatever reason, they include the infants in picture day. I thought, "How does this work?" Turns out that it doesn't work. It was mass chaos. One baby would start crying, then ALL of the babies would start crying. Except for K and one other little girl, everyone was upset.
The photographer had me stay to try and get K to look at the camera and smile. She kept speaking to K in baby talk, and K just looked at her like she was nuts. Finally, I had to interrupt and say that we don't use baby talk (code: that's probably why she's looking at you as if you're crazy). Didn't matter. This woman continued to goo goo gah gah at K. I'll definitely be ordering one of these pictures, if not for any other reason but to have her "WTF" look on file for the rest of her life.
I left after the photo fiasco, and I didn't cry. So I thought I was doing better, right? Wrong. Today was the first day we had our web cam access. PAYING FOR THIS EXTRA WAS A HUGE MISTAKE. I called them mid-morning to give them a "tip" about putting her down for a nap (she likes to be swaddled), and not only did it not end up working for long, but they left her swaddled all day. AGH. So the swaddle bag will no longer be coming with us to daycare, and we'll be canceling the web cam after this month. Joey and I both agreed that it's causing me more anxiety than it's worth.
As for being back to work, that part is fine. I am right back in the swing of things. It's like I never left, and my coworkers are being super sweet with welcoming me back and asking how things are going with K. But overall? It's only day two, and I'm exhausted. I'll be going home tonight, having a BIG glass of wine, and counting the hours until this first, very difficult week is over.