Sunday, June 17, 2012

yesterday

Yesterday sucked.

We were scheduled to contact the expectant mother at 2:30. We called. She didn't answer, so I left a message with our contact number and ended the message with, "We really look forward to speaking with you!" We thought that maybe she just got caught up with something and would give us a call back.

Two hours later, it became apparent that the phone wasn't going to ring. It took another two hours before I finally lost it. I had a complete breakdown, and then composed myself long enough to write an email to the paralegal explaining that she didn't take our call.

We are disappointed. We are trying desperately to stay hopeful. Maybe she just got nervous. Maybe she had a family emergency and can't get to the phone. But, of course, I can't help but think of the worst case scenario: that she already spoke with the other family and decided to choose them without speaking to us, too.

I'll know more tomorrow morning once the attorney's office opens. For now, we wait. And we hope that this isn't the worst case scenario.

18 comments:

Court said...

Katie, I am so sorry. My heart aches for you. You and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers today.

It Is What It Is said...

I'm so sorry that it went down this way. These situations with birth mothers are often less than ideal and that you have no control only adds to your anxiety.

I hope you get some answers so that you can move forward.

Rebecca said...

Oh hon. I'm sad and angry for you. Sending lots of love your way.

AnotherDreamer said...

I am so sorry it turned out like that.

Babylicious said...

So sorry to hear what she did. I hope you get an explanation.

Dawn said...

I am so sorry. I hope you get some answers soon.

Shannon said...

Thinking of you....

Gurlee said...

Ugh.

Sending some love your way.

Emily said...

I'm so sorry :(

missohkay said...

Oh, god this rollercoaster is awful. Fingers crossed that something will work out for you soon.

M said...

I'm sorry. I hope you hear from her soon.

lparsons15 said...

I seriously hope for you that there is some type of explanation..I hate this for you guys so much, such an unfair roller coaster. My heart aches for you guys..

Jin said...

I'm really hoping she had some emergency come up and she didn't speak to either couple and will reschedule. Horrible. I'm so sorry hun.

Jaclyn said...

I'm so sorry. I know its not much comfort, but the fact that you were one of her top choices means that eventually another birth mother will love your profile and choose you.

hgavin said...

This sucks so much. I hope you get a call and an explanation soon. I'll be thinking of you.

Alex said...

Oh man, I'm so sorry. This sucks. Thinking of you...

AplusB said...

Oh, I can only imagine the agony of waiting for that phone call. Thinking of you guys. Hang in there! Hoping it was just an oversight and you will connect soon.

Aunt Theresa said...

I just started reading your blog. I'm so sorry that this is happening. We just had a failed adoption 2 months ago. We went and I took care of the baby for 3 days at the hospital and stayed the night(s) taking care of her. Birth moms family put pressure on her and she folded at last minute. It was so hard to walk out of the hospital without my little one. Heartbreaking can't begin to describe it. I miss her every day! Praying for you and for peace. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. I promise their is a perfect little one out there that fits into your family.