I felt a sense of relief after writing my last post. As if the idea of living child free was the giant elephant in the room that I needed to set free. As sad as it is, it also feels good to be able to say, "I can do this." If faced with the situation, I could handle it. Joey has always been able to handle it; it was me who couldn't come to terms with it. Now I have.
Of course, I didn't expect that just three days later we would receive an email about a potential situation here in Florida. For whatever reason, reading about the scenario sent me into a full emotional breakdown. We initially declined to show our profile. (Please note that I do understand everyone's curiosity as to why we would turn down any situation. However, don't wish to share the exact reasons why this is, as these choices are very difficult and personal to Joey and I.) However, the paralegal for our attorney's office called me and we went over the case. She is meeting with the expectant mother today and will be getting more information both about her and the situation. Depending on the answers she receives, we may show our profile. We won't know more until next week, and I'm doing my best to push it aside.
Luckily, there's no shortage of things to do. After taking over a year off from freelancing, I'm starting on a new project this weekend. This is great not only to occupy my free time, but also to help with our adoption fund. (Which reminds me: we just added a beautiful new donation to our Etsy shop. Please check out this gorgeous handmade baby sweater, donated by Jamie at Prairie Girl Knits.)
So after a week of being here, there, and everywhere, I'm happy to be facing a few days off and a side project to take my mind off of things. I hope next week will be less emotional. But with infertility and adoption, you simply never know what's next.