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Friday, May 11, 2012

whirlwind week

I felt a sense of relief after writing my last post. As if the idea of living child free was the giant elephant in the room that I needed to set free. As sad as it is, it also feels good to be able to say, "I can do this." If faced with the situation, I could handle it. Joey has always been able to handle it; it was me who couldn't come to terms with it. Now I have.

Of course, I didn't expect that just three days later we would receive an email about a potential situation here in Florida. For whatever reason, reading about the scenario sent me into a full emotional breakdown. We initially declined to show our profile. (Please note that I do understand everyone's curiosity as to why we would turn down any situation. However, don't wish to share the exact reasons why this is, as these choices are very difficult and personal to Joey and I.) However, the paralegal for our attorney's office called me and we went over the case. She is meeting with the expectant mother today and will be getting more information both about her and the situation. Depending on the answers she receives, we may show our profile. We won't know more until next week, and I'm doing my best to push it aside.

Luckily, there's no shortage of things to do. After taking over a year off from freelancing, I'm starting on a new project this weekend. This is great not only to occupy my free time, but also to help with our adoption fund. (Which reminds me: we just added a beautiful new donation to our Etsy shop. Please check out this gorgeous handmade baby sweater, donated by Jamie at Prairie Girl Knits.)

So after a week of being here, there, and everywhere, I'm happy to be facing a few days off and a side project to take my mind off of things. I hope next week will be less emotional. But with infertility and adoption, you simply never know what's next.

9 comments:

Doogie said...

I know I've been awfully quiet lately, but I thought I should mention that I have confidence in your decision, whichever way you decide to go.

Dawn said...

Good luck staying distracted! Sounds like your project might do the trick!

Rebecca said...

HoPing for a calmer week ahead!

Alex said...

Wow - this does sound like a whirlwind week! Of course, as soon as you truly accept one possibility of life, the other comes swooping down, ready to change everything! I'm interested to hear what happens...

Rach said...

We declined a situation as well, it's not an easy thing to do. Hopefully you'll get more information soon and be able to see if this situation might be for you.

Glass Case of Emotion said...

I think that the adoption wait- while really really challenging- encouraged me to get where you are going now- acceptance. And trying to believe no matter what happens- we would be okay. It was a real struggle though. So many emotions.

Sending you good thoughts for this current adoption situation. Even if you do not wish to discuss details, feel free to email me any time. This is tough stuff!

Keep believing. "It's always darkest before the dawn"- those words kept me going through so much!

Rita said...

Like everything else in life, you have to do what's best for you, your family, and always follow your heart. Sounds so lame and Hallmark-y, but it's true.

Take it easy this weekend--I expect to hear about you enjoying a giant glass of wine with your feet up! :)

Gurlee said...

I hope that your distractions are helpful.

Making a decision regarding adoption is extremely personal, no one should second guess your right to privacy regarding one of life's most important decisions. With that said, I am hopeful that the "right" situation will come your way soon.

Thinking of you.

myinfertilitywoes said...

thinking of you... xoxo