It's been a long time since I've participated in ICLW. A very long time. I think I stopped sometime around when we ended treatment, and I'm not sure I've ever participated since.
My story in a nutshell: got married on May 24, 2008; started trying to have a baby that same month (making this week the four year anniversary of our marriage AND trying to become parents); 3 REs, 4 IUIs, and 2 laps later, we still don't have a baby. We decided to stop treatment in the fall of 2010, and we began pursuing domestic adoption. We completed our home study in October of 2011, and we've been on the waiting list since then. We are currently an active, waiting family with two agencies and one attorney.
In the midst of all of this, I've battled issues with breast lumps, and I recently underwent surgery on my sinuses. For a girl who was rarely sick as a kid, I've had my fair share of medical issues in my 20s. I'm probably the only person you'll ever meet who looks forward to turning 30 in hopes of a better decade.
That's where we are on the factual aspect of our journey. Emotionally? I waver between calm and "what the fuck is going on here?" Lately, especially, as we inch closer and closer to our home study renewal paperwork. I never thought I'd grow tired of trying to reach parenthood, but to be honest, I'm kind of exhausted. I feel like it's shit or get off the pot time. Not for us so much as for the universe. I'd like the universe to decide sooner rather than later about our parenthood status. Is it going to happen or no? Either way, I just want an answer at this point.
Personal life? I'm a 27-year-old librarian who loves to read (obviously), write (hence the blog), travel, spend time with my husband (Joey) and our rescue dog (a mini doxie; pictured below), eat, and take photos. I'll leave you with one of my favorite photos of our puppy:
Happy ICLW, everyone!