Thursday, April 5, 2012

27

Tomorrow I turn 27. And instead of lamenting over the fact that I'm still not a parent - four years after we started this journey - I'm going to say I'm excited.

Because this has to be the year I'm going to be a mom. It must be. I've been patient. I've been understanding. And now, it's my time.

Because I deserve for 27 to be a good year. I deserve for 27 to be the year that this fight comes to an end. I deserve happiness. I deserve resolve. I deserve peace. I deserve a crying, screaming baby at 3 am - a sound that I've wanted to hear for so long, it makes my heart ache. I deserve the light at the end of the tunnel.

This will be my year. I will make sure of it.

18 comments:

Her Royal Fabulousness said...

This *will* be your year. Happy birthday. :)

AnotherDreamer said...

Happy early birthday... this has to be your year!

Just wanted to say that I really resonate with you. We didn't move on to adoption, but it took us 4 years to have our son, and I'm just a couple months older than you. Anyway, just wanted to say that I know this is really hard, and I'm thinking of you.

Rach said...

Happy early Birthday! Really hope it's the best year yet!

missohkay said...

Damn straight!

Ali @ Not All Dreams Are Free said...

Happy birthday for tomorrow! Your positivity has got to pay off. I hope this is your year too!

Miss Megan said...

You go girl! Happy 27th birthday!!!

Dawn said...

Wishing you a very happy and blessed 27th year! You are so deserving of happiness!

Rebecca said...

You do deserve that. So much.

I hope you have a very Happy Birthday!

Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.? said...

yes - this will be your year!!!

Happy Birthday!

someday-soon said...

This will be your year my friend! Happy birthday =)

Kechara said...

Now that it's today and not yesterday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Jessica said...

This IS your year!!! Happy Birthday!

Mrs. P said...

After googling "high prolactin levels" I found your blog and sat here and read back over a year worth of posts. We have some differences in our journey but I do get everything you say. I feel like no one really understands the toll IF can have on a person unless you have gone through it. Yesterday a friend complained to me because she got pg on the first try, REALLY?! Anyways, I wanted to tell you that even though I am a new reader I am rooting for you and sending positive vibes your way. I hope you get the call you are waiting for. Sending love from good ole New Jersey!

Mrs. P said...

PS- happy birthday!!

Trisha said...

Happy Birthday!

Adele said...

Happy (belated) birthday. I hope with all of me that 27 is your year. I just have a good feeling that it WILL be.

Logical Libby said...

Damn right it will! I hope you celebrated in style!

Jen said...

Oh, you super effing deserve this. I cannot wait for 27 to bring you all the joy you've been waiting for, sweetheart!