I'd be lying if I wrote that I was over it already. I'm not over it already. I probably won't be over it for a few days. I'm just going to let myself ride out on this anger/sadness train until it ends, because I figure if I force myself to be happy and get over it when I'm NOT over it, no one is winning.
Everyone has been supportive, though I have to admit, I'm a little sick of hearing "this just wasn't your time/baby." Is that all anyone knows what to say? YES, I know it's not our time or our baby. Thank you for the reminder.
(Okay, angry and hormonal rant is now over.)
The positives in this? We still don't have any negative comments about our profile - or at least none that either the agency or attorney are telling us. We're revisiting our application with the agency to be more open to certain drug exposures and medical issues, now that we've become more familiar with certain things after this situation. We are also now with two organization. Double the exposure, right?
We both realize that we have to be more patient. You'd think we would have that down by now after four years of infertility. But I'm also realizing that we need to be more aggressive. I can't be passive with our agency anymore. If you count me emailing them last night, I've only contacted them twice in almost five months. This doesn't mean I'm going to be up their asses, but I'm certainly going to be more proactive with them.
Everyone needs to know we're still here. We're still waiting. We're still eager to be parents.
So, who wants to help me with this? Who wants to help us get our names out there? There are three ways you can help us do this:
1. Like and share our adoption Facebook page.
2. Share this blog.
3. Promote our IndieGoGo site (the widget is also on the right-hand column of this page). The campaign ends in 10 days, but I will most likely need to restart it, as we did not hit our goal.
That's it. That's all I've got as far as putting myself out there. Now? I'm going to retreat back into grieving. I'm sure I'll be good as new in just a few days.
Thanks for all the love. We both appreciate it more than you know.