Tuesday, March 27, 2012

i'm not calling it an update (updated)

Because there isn't much of an update to give. The paralegal is showing our profile and two others to the mom today, and she expects her to make a decision today. I'm not sure why she expects a decision today. Regardless, they expect to update us tomorrow with a decision.

I'm having a hard time balancing my emotions right now. I go back and forth between optimism and realism. My anxiety was high yesterday, but I feel calm today. I keep telling myself that there's nothing we can do about it. It's out of our control.

We'll see if that same sense of calm is still present tomorrow.

Now I'll call it an update: She didn't choose us.

20 comments:

Glass Case of Emotion said...

Just when we thought we'd been taught everything, adoption teaches us new lessons in patience and perspective. Sending out positive vibes to you and the birth family for the right outcome in this situation. If it's not meant to be, I do hope your child is headed your way soon. They are, it's just hard to see it and believe it some days, trust me I know!

Hugs!

KRISTI said...

Sending you peaceful, yet hopeful thoughts.

KT said...

Crossing my fingers and toes for you!!

Jem said...

Fingers crossed for you that the right situation will present itself at the right time for you.

foxy said...

Thinking calm grounded thoughts for you Katie. xoxo

Lollipop Goldstein said...

I haven't really found it to be true, personally, but I was told that when you are anxious, you should sit with your mouth slightly open and your tongue OFF the roof of my mouth. Apparently, we place the tongue against the roof of our mouth while we think, and taking it off cuts that ability to obsess. I have not been able to get this to work for me when I'm anxious, BUT I also admit that I don't try it for longer than 10 seconds before giving up.

Feel free to ignore that assvice too if it doesn't work for you.

Just abiding with you as you wait.

Rebecca said...

Still on the edge of my seat waiting to find out what happens!! Thinking of you.

Arlyne said...

I have everything possible crossed that tomorrow brings wonderful news for you guys!!!! Hang in there! Thinking really good thoughts for you! xoxo

Katie said...

@ Mel: I'm going to try that and see if it works next time I feel anxious (and if there's no wine handy). :)

Rita said...

Thinking good thoughts for you, Katie.

It Is What It Is said...

I will agree with Mel that consciously removing your tongue from the roof of your mouth to where it should naturally rest on the bottom of your mouth is considered a stress reduction technique. We hold a lot of tension in our tongue, mouth, and jaw when we are stressed and the simple act of not allowing our tongue to push up on the roof of our mouth does help and I hope it brings a measure of relief. Not sure it will stop the obsessive thoughts, though, but that's natural as this situation is so totally out of your hands.

Abiding with you and knowing that whatever the outcome it will be the right one.

Rach said...

Oh wow. I agree so exciting and nervewracking all at once. Hopefully you get good news!

Elizabeth said...

Ugh.. I'm so, so sorry! :(

Sarah said...

so very sorry. My heart is with you all. xo

M said...

I'm so sorry you weren't chosen. ((hugs))

Anonymous said...

No other way to say it. It sucks. Somehow, somewhere the baby meant to be your will be.

nurslouisa said...

Grrrrrrrr that's not the outcome I was hoping for. I'm so sorry.

gailcanoe said...

I'm so sorry to hear that! I was really hoping for good news, but your baby is still out there.

Hugs

Daryl said...

I'm so sorry. I know that's not the news you were hoping to hear.

Rach said...

Sorry to hear the news. I can relate. During our journey we were 1 of only 2 profiles shown and the birth mother picked the other couple. It was very tough. Thinking of you!