Wednesday, September 7, 2011

ready to go

I still haven't cried. I wish I could say that it's due to some medication. But I'm not taking anything that would make me "numb." It's been weeks, and it doesn't feel like the floodgates will be open anytime soon. Therefore, I'm accepting the fact that I may never cry again. That's right. No more tears for Katie.

(Let's see if that tricks my tear ducts into exploding.)

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The long weekend was adoption-centered. We went out and reordered the crib. It should be in late next week when we return from New York and the Night of Hope. We picked up a crib mattress and the changing table/dresser combo, which is currently sitting in pieces on the nursery floor. (Long story.) My mom offered to order the crib bedding for us, so that's on its way, too. I also spent the weekend moving everything non-baby out of the nursery closet and organizing all of the hand-me-down baby items that our friends Brittany and Glenn kindly offered up.

And you know what else we did this weekend? FINISHED THE PAPERWORK. True, I still need to go to out and make copies of everything - including our insurance cards, Danica's shot records, etc. - but the last of the questions is answered, which means the hard part of trying to fit our parenting philosophies in three lines is over. I think I'm going to take pictures of us dropping the packet in the mail.

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We leave for the Big Apple on Saturday. I'm ready, in every sense of the word, minus packing. But I'm nervous. I found out last week that I have to give a speech. And speeches pretty much scare the hell out of me. It's written, and I'm trying not to look at it. The more I look at it, the more I'll want to change it. So, I'm letting it be - or trying to, anyway.

I probably won't live post again until I return from my trip. We have so much to get done before we leave. The A/C still needs to be fixed, for one, and my boss's memorial is this Friday. But I do plan on scheduling a few posts for when I'm gone. My next update will be a recap of the trip and the Night of Hope!

"See" everyone next week. :)

19 comments:

Dawn said...

Yay for the paperwork being finished!

I think you'll rock your speech.

I want to say that I hope you find your tears soon, but I mostly hope that when you find them they are tears of joy rather than sadness.

Whitney Anderson said...

Good luck with your speech. You'll be great.

Kelly said...

So glad to hear the paperwork is finished and all the progress you're making in the nursery!

Good luck with your speech! I'll be thinking of you!

Rebecca said...

YAY for paperwork being done!! That's wonderful!

Good luck with the speech. I wish I could be there to see it. I know I'd have tears in my eyes then. Maybe you will, too! ((hugs))

Rach said...

Finishing the paperwork is huge! One step closer! Have fun on your trip.

Arlyne said...

I'm so excited for you guys that the paperwork is done! :)

I know your speech will be amazing!!! Have a great time! xo

Glass Case of Emotion said...

Good luck with the speech!

Congrats on the paperwork being in! One step closer!

I can't believe how much nursery stuff you have already, but it's great. I don't have the crib yet, but I do have a bassinet.

now you get to join us in the waiting game. Keep that hopefulness going!

AnotherDreamer said...

Yay for the paperwork being finished! And I think dropping that packet in the mail is definitely photo worthy.

I find the crib fiasco's you've had to be so frustrating. I hope things go smoothly this time!

Best wishes on the speech!

Tammy said...

You're going to do a wonderful job with your speech -- just be yourself and everyone will love it! Have a great time. And congratulations on the paperwork being done!

jennifer @ what would jen do said...

i have many questions for you. I got really busy at work and then kind of slacked off on the whole blog thing. I kept meaning to get here and read. do you mind me once again harassing you?

Gurlee said...

What a big step, finished, congratulations!

Have fun in NYC, perhaps all of the love you are going to receive will cue the tears! Good luck, I know you will rock it out.

theportofindecision said...

have fun in NYC, and best of luck with your speech!

Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.? said...

Have a great trip to NYC! You will be wonderful giving your speech!

lowfatlady said...

Have a great trip! I hope everything goes well!

thewrightday said...

I bet it feels really good to have all the adoption paperwork behind you. I don't know how I feel about the whole not crying thing. I, too would be confused if the tears would just not come when you feel that emotion that usually triggers them. I have found the older I get the less I cry. I don't know if I can put my finger on why (or at least in a comment anyway). I can't wait to hear about New York. I'm so proud of you, and hope that Joey can tape your speech because I'm sure it will be fantastic! Have a wonderful time :)

Browniris said...

I hope you have an amazing trip, and I am sure you will do a great job with your speech!

Damita said...

Yay for paperwork being finished!!

Logical Libby said...

There are plenty of tears to be shed in life. Don't rush them.

Good luck with the speech!

portable crib bedding said...

Good luck with your speech. You are great.