I can't cry.
No really, I can't. I cannot cry.
It's not that I'm trying to cry on a regular basis. But I am used to crying on a regular basis - as in at least once per week. I've always been an emotional person, and crying tends to help me with my stress. I'm generally less agitated when I cry regularly.
Lately, though, my tears seem to be missing. I've had some extremely stressful days, and I FEEL like crying. Yet nothing happens. My whole chest hurts, I have the lump in my throat, and my eyes are as dry as can be. The other night it got so bad, I actually tried to find a sad movie that would make me cry. How pathetic is that?
I know this is going to sound weird for some people - especially my husband, who is obviously not a woman - but I need to cry. Crying is my release. Crying is the way that I get all of the bad stuff out. Sure, going to the gym and having an extra tough workout helps. But tears? Tears wash everything away. There's nothing like having a good cry. AND I CAN'T HAVE ONE.
What's wrong with me?