I have been lapped thrice. Yes. A person is now pregnant with their third child in three years. This person.
I'm not angry about not being pregnant. Or sad. But moments like these only make me lose more faith in the way that God or the Universe or who/what-ever operates.
Two women I know in this community lost babies this week. Lisa delivered her twins (a boy and a girl) at 21 weeks, and Audrey lost her sweet baby boy at 15 weeks. Why do people who work so hard to experience the joy of motherhood go through so much pain and others don't? I want to understand how life is so simple and easy for some and so difficult for others. Never would I wish losing a child on ANYONE, but why must anyone lose babies at all - especially those who have spent years trying so hard to become mothers. Especially people like Lisa and Audrey who've lost other children.
I realize I'm wasting my time by trying to find the meaning of life and how it works. I do. But I can't help myself. How someone can have three children in three years of marriage and others have to lose multiple children?
In the midst of so much sadness in this community and my own struggles having now passed the three-year mark of us trying to become parents, I can't comprehend why things happen the way they do.