It's been a long time since I participated in ICLW. I think I felt guilty participating after a while, because I didn't exactly have anything going on. We were on a break from fertility treatments, and I wasn't sure where things were heading. Now that we have a sense of direction and our path is clear, I figured I would start getting involved again. Plus, maybe this will encourage me to blog more often. I sort of fell off the blogging wagon a bit this month . . .
Anyway, I'm Katie. My husband is Joey. And at age 25, I've sadly come to terms with the fact that I'll never carry a child. We went through four IUIs with two different REs, all failures, and we put a pause on fertility treatments last May. In the fall, after a cyst ruptured on my left ovary (my "problem child" as I refer to it), we agreed to end treatments for good and pursue domestic infant adoption. Since the agent we've chosen has a record of very fast matches and placements, we've decided to wait until we have almost all of the adoption money in our bank account before filing our paperwork. Right now, it looks like that will happen in late summer/early fall. But there's a lot of prep work to do between now and then. We are currently in the beginning stages of decorating the nursery.
Amidst all of this, we are still coping with the physical reminders of our infertility. Since my cyst rupture in October, I've had debilitating pain on my left side and more cysts. Our RE put me on a low dose of progesterone-only birth control back in January, but this only seemed to make things worse. Luckily, I've learned throughout the past three years that I am my only advocate for my health. We decided to switch back to a gynecologist for treatment since we are no longer trying to get pregnant. Our first appointment was on March 2. On March 4, the doctor informed me that my ovary was enlarged, and it was serving as a home for several cysts - the largest of which was 5 cm. I needed surgery as soon as possible. On March 8, I was cut open for the third time in 13 months (previous surgeries: a laparoscopy in February 2010 and a breast biopsy in March 2010). Much to my dismay, he saved the ovary, but he also figured out the problem and came up with possible steps to get it under control.
So, that's where we are at right now: waiting on our baby (still) and waiting to see if this new treatment plan for my cysts works. It's the story of an infertile's life, I guess. No matter where you are in your journey, you are always waiting for something. I'm very much looking forward to the day when all of this waiting is behind me. I hope it comes soon.
Happy ICLW! I look forward to "meeting" all of you.