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Thursday, March 3, 2011

here's what i know

I know that I have a cyst, because I saw it on the ultrasound screen at the hospital yesterday.

Beyond that, I know nothing.

I went to the new doctor yesterday morning, and he gave me the same sad song:

"There's nothing I can do."
"I can write you a prescription for Depo-Provera."
"I don't want to put you through another lap."
"You are too young for me to feel okay with removing your ovary."

He wasn't going to do blood work. He simply wanted to send me off with a pile of prescriptions. When they told me I'd have to wait to get in for an ultrasound for at least another day, I lost it. I walked out.

Joey, fortunately, went back in and explained to the woman at the scheduling desk what was going on. I was in pain, and I had reached my wits end. She told him that we should schedule an ultrasound with a local hospital, and that they would send over the images in the morning for the doctor to review. Several phone calls later, Joey made arrangements for me to get the testing done at a hospital up the road.

It was there where I went through the longest ultrasound of my life.

One hour from start to finish. They must have taken at least 50 photos. The tech called in another tech to look.

Then, there was silence – except for the ticking of the clock and the occasional whooshing sound of my empty uterus when they wanted to record the sounds.

I managed to catch a glimpse of the screen long enough to see a cyst, but that was it. The two techs whispered about something being "posterior or anterior?" and they focused long and hard on the bottom of my uterus, near my pubic bone (almost at my cervix).

Then that was it. One of the techs escorted me back to the waiting room.

And now? I'm still waiting, over 24 hours after my appointment.

I’m waiting and trying desperately to calm that sinking feeling in my gut.

31 comments:

Sarah said...

Oh sweetie, I am thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers. Whatever it is that they saw, at least they will be able to get to the bottom of your pain. Fingers crossed that the doctor calls you back very soon.

Rebecca said...

I'm thinking of you. I hope you hear something from the doctor soon.

JC said...

I hope they call you very very soon! I'm frustrated for you! =(

Stephanie said...

Oh Katie, I feel your frustration. In this moment I'm impatiently waiting 48 hours after the fact for info from my RE from some blood work. Why don't people understand how frustrating and important this type of information is to us!? Makes me crazy. I took off work today just so I could wallow in self pity until the call this afternoon, only to be told, they're still waiting for lab work and they'll call tomorrow. Blah. Sending you hugs and this weekend I'll send you your goodies :)

AL said...

so frustrated for you and that you still don't have answers. :-( I hope that you hear back very very soon and it's something treatable w/o evil BCPs. thinking of u.

LOVE that your husband stepped up for you and got things done w/ the clinic..he's a good, good guy!

Secret Sloper said...

Oh honey, I am sorry. I want this all to be over for you so much. I hope you get some answers and some real help SOON.

Another Dreamer said...

I am so frustrated for you. Keeping you in my thoughts, hoping they get back to you soon.

The Baby Race said...

Oh, Katie, you have been through the ringer with all these stupid doctors. I hope you hear back soon. And I'm praying for you and a solution to your pain.

Melissa G said...

Oh crap - that's brutal. I know the techs aren't allowed to tell you anything, but for the doctor to keep you waiting this long is just cruel.

Sending you warm thoughts and hugs.

~C~ said...

WTF? Call already, people! I hope this brings you some answers. This must be so frustrating.

Amanda said...

UGGGHHH.....Geez Katie.....you deserve a frickin break.

I hope by now you have talked to somebody about your ultrasound.

XOXOXO

Michelle said...

Really hoping for some answers for you! Waiting sucks!!! At the very least, I hope that the pain is subsiding.

Jen Has A Pen said...

Ugh, the waiting must be driving you insane. I'm so sorry. :-( Such a crappy situation. I'm thinking of you.

foxy said...

I love your husband. He deserves big props for advocating for you when you needed him.

Waiting for news is so difficult, especially when you suspect that it is not good. I don't have much patience for that kind of waiting.

I sure hope that they have some answers when they call you though. And I wouldn't listen to any doctor who tells you that you are "too young" for treatment that you need. Sounds like its time to get thee to a better doc... But you already know that.

I'll be thinking about you. Take Care

Littlest True Blue said...

sooo frustrating honey! I am thinking of you and praying you feel better! Stupid doctors giving you the run around... I hope joey keeps taking good care of you!

Glass Case of Emotion said...

Oh Katie I am so sorry... Thinking of you...

AplusB said...

Oh Katie, I'm so sorry. I hope you get some answers soon.

Logical Libby said...

AHHHHHHHH! That blows! I have a hard time accepting the line that "they don't realize" that people are panicking when they do this shit every day.

ON my last cyst they wouldn't tell me anything until the doctor called except "try not to move." UM, WHAT? WILL I EXPLODE?

Nicole said...

What?? That is so disconcerting to say the least, and super annoying as well! I am definitely thinking of you and hoping that SOMEBODY fills you in STAT! Props to your DH for making sure the u/s happened.

Kaitake said...

What IS it with goddamn ultrasound techs??!? I know it's nowhere near the same, but when I was 11 I has to have an ultrasound to look at my kidneys and mum promised it would be fun and that I would get to see the screen etc. I didn't get to see, and the tech completely clammed up because she didn't want to tell me what she'd found: an extra ureter. No life threatening problem afterall, but you would have thought I was about to die from the way the tech behaved!! I will be crossing all my fingers and toes for you that someone can explain what the hell is going on and treat it. I'm so sorry you're in pain and I'm really glad your superb hubby is looking after you so well. Best wishes.

*Jelena* said...

Oh, Katie, that is just too frustrating. I am so sorry you're having to go through all this. I'm thinking of you.

Sushigirl said...

That's horrible. I hope you're ok and get good news, soon.

suchagoodegg said...

I am so frustrated for you. ((((hugs)))) PLease keep us posted. I'm hoping the news is good AND that you can finally resolve this.

manymanymoons said...

So so frustrating. I'm glad they really took their time checking you out and maybe all that silence means they found something fixable and you'll get some relief soon.

So sorry you're in pain.

Trisha said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

Dawn said...

I hope you hear something from the doctor soon. I really hope they aren't going to try to make you wait all weekend. I'm so angry that you are receiving such crap medical care.

Brittany said...

Ugh! I hope they get you some information soon!!! I'm sorry they are keeping you waiting.

Kim said...

I sincerely hope that you have answers by now Katie. I know the wait can be painful. Thinking of you. xoxoxox

amiracle4us said...

Waiting is the worst, especially when they put fear in your mind. Sending you hugs and wishing for quick answers!!

sue said...

Good luck. Techs stink and make you so nervous often times unnecessarily. Keep in mind "thee is always a light at the end of the tunnel."

Sandra said...

I would have comfort in knowing that the ultrasound tech did her job. The fact that she brought someone else in shows that they are doing their job right. Its always best to have a second pair of eyes. If the tech doesn't see / properly image the pathology, the Dr. will not see it either, which will not give you a correct diagnosis or lead you to the correct treatment. Give the tech a little break, their job is very very stressful. It's a lot more than just 'taking pictures'. Also, they legally cannot say anything. I'm sorry you have to go through this however, it is never fun waiting for answers you so desperately want. Take care. best wishes.