Monday, January 10, 2011

this is me saying, "fuck it"

While I'd like to believe that the intense pains that have radiated through my left ovary this weekend are ovulation pains, I know that they are too sharp/strong. I also know that ovulation pains shouldn't cause you to double over, burst into tears, and be unable to walk because you are struggling to breathe.

So this morning, I broke down and called the doctor. I calmly explained to the nurse that no, these were not normal ovulation pains as I rarely ovulate on my own. Then, I asked for a consult with my doctor on a date that my husband could attend (we settled on next Wednesday at 2 pm). Because I've had enough. I'm not going to be a pussy anymore. I'm taking back control. Who gives a shit if I'm not there to get pregnant? Someone needs to take me seriously. And if my doctor won't, I'll go to anyone who will listen. I'll travel to Gainesville or Tampa or Miami and see an RE who will listen to me.

I'm not crazy. But I will be if someone doesn't give me a solution.

41 comments:

Courtney said...

You poor thing. I hope you get some answers and soon.

*hugs*

Sarah said...

I am so sorry. This was the stuff I was dealing with before I finally got my endo diagnosis. Have you had a lap? I wonder if that is what is going on. I have had terrible pain focused in an area like that from cysts too. They should be able to find and answer and help you! It is ridiculous if they don't take you seriously.

Michelle said...

I'm so sorry for the pain. I'm glad to hear you taking control..good for you chickie!! You deserve real answers. *hugs*

mybumpyjourney said...

Owwie. I am sorry you are in pain. I am glad that you are taking back control!!!! I hope they are able to get you back on the road to recovery!

Secret Sloper said...

Amen. I really hope someone can fix this for you. You should not have to live in pain.

Rita said...

I sincerely hope the RE is able to figure out what's going on and come up with a solution. You should not be in pain like this. That's just unacceptable.

Sending many ((hugs))) your way.

myTTCstory said...

You poor thing, you need some answers. Good luck with your appointment x

Doogie said...

I'm a huge believer in taking back your control and not being a victim.

I have a friend who was in humungous backpain and his GP kept putting him off everytime he tried to make an appointment. Finally he ended up in the emergency room where the doctor sent him immediately to surgery.

I kept trying to tell him that the GP should be able to make space for him, and that he needed to be assertive and to ask to be squeezed anywhere there was a time or cancellation, or hell, just sit in the office and glare at the staff until they take you into the doctor just to be rid of you.

It should never come to this, but you are the patient and your comfort is important!

You show 'em!

manymanymoons said...

Good for you for putting your foot down. Don't take no for an answer. It's good that your husband will be there as an advocate for you. I hope this goes away as soon as possible for you.

Noelle said...

Good for you. I remember when I finally had that moment and demanded a lap. The doctor acted like I was a nut job, but he did it. You shouldn't have to deal with this.

Rebecca said...

Oh, sweetie, I'm so sorry. I'm so glad you're taking control, though.

Trisha said...

I'm so sorry! I hope you feel better and get some answers soon!

AplusB said...

I'm so sorry. I hope you get someone to listen and give you answers soon.

foxy said...

I think that this is you saying, "I respectfully demand that you Listen to me and take me seriously."

Sometimes it really does take a few tries before you find the right doc who is trained and compassionate enough to help.

We live in a rural community and whenever we have anything more than a cold, we travel to the nearest research university for medical care. The docs here are just not up to date on the research or the standard practice.

Good luck Katie!

myinfertilitywoes said...

Oh my gosh. How awful. I'm sorry you're physically going through this and that no one is taking you seriously. I hope you get some answers soon...

Sarah S said...

Oh no!!

I hope you get some answers!!!

Are you nauseous or running a fever? If you do get those symptoms head straight to the emergency that can be a sign that a cyst has ruptured or your you are having ovarian Torsion. (I don't mean to scare you)

Cheryl said...

I hate that you are in so much pain. They definitely need to get to the bottom of this b/c it's simply not normal to experience that kind of pain. Be agressive with them and don't hesitate to move on if you need to! This has got to stop. x

Mic said...

Its bullshit when Ends pushes you to these extremes. You feel as though you are fighting against your own body. You know that I felt/feel the same way and had a similar experience last week. As a result, this AF has been disgusting and horrendous. I don't want my left ovary anymore- take it and just stop the pain.
so I understand and I hope you are taken seriously.

suchagoodegg said...

Oh no, no, NO Katie. :( I'm so sorry my friend. Glad you are taking charge of the situation and getting some freaking answers. Keep us posted and stay strong. Thinking of you. xo

MelissaP05 said...

I'm so sorry. Let me know if you need my REs info, they have several places across FL. We go to their main office in Jacksonville. There's 4 RE's there. Hope you get some help and feel better soon.

Molly said...

*big hugs* Sorry you are going through this. I have been there and those pains in the ovary are the worst! If you do wind up going to Gainesville I know a great doctor there. He dealt with my crazy ovaries for years and I never felt pushed aside!

Crossed Fingers said...

*hugs* I'm sorry you're going through all that pain! I hope your RE takes you seriously and if not, I hope the next door you knock on is a wonderful RE!

Kaitake said...

I'm sorry to hear you're in pain, that's terrible. I really hope your doc will take you seriously and provide the treatment you need. Don't stop until someone takes you seriously! Be your own advocate... Or if you're too stressed, is there a friend who could come to the appointment for emotional support?

Leelers♥ said...

:( I Hope you get some answers soon at your appointment.

Sending hugs!

someday-soon said...

I'm sorry about the doubling over pain!!! Good for you for taking charge of your health, I hope you get some answers.

Waiting Lisa said...

Good for you. I'm glad you are standing up for yourself. I hope you are feeling better soon. Stupid good for nothing ovary.

Kelly said...

I'm sorry you're in my pain and I'm so glad that you have an appointment. You're completely right. Demand answers. You deserve them.

Bobbi said...

Yikes, those pains sound awful! Good for you for taking charge and making the call. What are you thinking it is? Cysts? Endometriosis? Whatever it is, you made a good step in calling your doctor...too bad you have to wait 9 days, though! Good luck with everything and that you answers! :)

AL said...

I hope you get some answers very soon, it's not right to live with this pain.

hugs.

rebecca said...

Good for you! I'm so sorry you're in so much pain, but that definitely is something that needs to be addressed and taken seriously! Hope you are able to get some answers and most importantly solutions at the appointment!

JL said...

Poor girl - I hope you get some answers soon. I know from experience that living that way is no fun at all.

Please advocate for yourself and get some answers.

JC said...

I'm sorry about the pain. =( Glad Joey will be with you at the next appt. He can kick the Dr's ass =).

amiracle4us said...

I hope next week you get your answers. Pain should never be an option-physical or emotional. Sending you hugs...xo

My So-Called (TTC) Life said...

I 100% agree with amiracle4us: you should never have to go through pain! I hope you get some answers very, VERY soon, Katie. *hugs*

Arlyne said...

giant (((HUGS))) sweetie! I'm so sorry you're feeling so lousy!! I really hope they find out what's causing it. Thinking good thoughts for you! xoxoxoxoxo

Kakunaa said...

OMG, you need to make them look at you! Something is very not right...I hope you get some answers, and soon!

Amanda said...

ugggh... I hope you get some answers. xxoxox

S.I.F. said...

You are NOT crazy Katie, and this is NOT normal!! I have been there so many times in so much pain and just wanting (needing) someone to take that seriously. Use your voice, and don't be afraid to yell. You deserve relief, and you deserve answers...

erika said...

I am sorry about the pain. I hope the appointment will deliver answers and most importantly comfort - both physically and emotionally.
I hate ignorant doctors for all of us! I am glad you make this step.

Another Dreamer said...

I'm so sorry :( I really hope you get someone to listen, because that's not normal and you know your own body!

Conceptionally Challenged said...

I'm sorry about the pain and the not being taken seriously, Katie. I've been in that situation. Good for you for taking control. And I hope you find a doctor that cares, soon, and that knows what to do.