I'm better today.
I just needed to get that out. And I needed to disable comments because I already feel guilty enough. I didn't need anyone agreeing that I am a horrible person to make me feel even more terrible that I already do.
I'm almost finished with my first book on adoption. PCOSChick sent me several books before the new year, and the first one I chose to read was A Love Like No Other: Stories from Adoptive Parents. It's a great book - incredibly honest and moving. It doesn't paint adoption as a perfect picture, which I love (because I know it's not perfect), but it also doesn't focus only on the negatives. Right now, I need a good balance of both.
Some of you have asked when we plan to start the paperwork process. Joey and I sat down and discussed it, and we agreed on August. If it were up to me, I'd probably start things right away, but Joey wanted to wait until the end of the year. So, we compromised - because that's what relationships are all about, right? :) Even though a true compromise would have been JUNE, I think August will work just fine since we'll be in between the summer and fall semesters.
This past weekend, we started our quest for nursery furniture and theme ideas. I've been looking at baby bedding for months, and, honestly, most of it is hideous unless you pay a ton of money. I have a feeling we'll end up with very plain bedding because I can't stand the busy patterns. But, in positive news, we decided on a nursery theme. Or should I say that Joey decided on a nursery theme, and I think it's too cute to pass up - since it involves my absolute favorite animal - next to dogs, of course: pandas!
So there it is: me being positive. That's good, right? I can be positive. Are you getting whiplash yet from my mood swings?