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Friday, December 31, 2010

happy new year

I joke that I don't make resolutions because they never come to fruition, but that I make goals. I set hopes and dreams. But the truth or what I'm learning with infertility is that hopes and dreams often fail miserably - at least when you are like me and you set a time frame for them. I remember sitting at the computer last year, writing about how 2010 would be different. How this would be the year that I get pregnant. That this would be the year we would resolve our infertility.

Well, here I am. Today is December 31. I am not pregnant. I have never been pregnant. And I certainly don't have a baby in my arms.

I could sit here and write down what I'd like to happen in 2011. I could sit here and type all of the things I hated about this year. I could sit here and write about the breast lump. The surgery for endo. The failed IUIs. How, in this last week of 2010, I experienced the gynecologist appointment from hell, a viral infection, and the arrival of AF - all fitting exclamation points to end this year.

Instead, I am going to sit here and tell you that I don't have hopes and dreams for 2011. I'm just going to live. And instead of wasting this space with misery and sadness about what wasn't or what could have been (because we all know that I write about depressing shit enough), I am going to focus on what was good. So here it is, my "best of" 2010 in review. Enjoy, and I hope everyone has a safe and happy New Year!

video

24 comments:

MelissaP05 said...

That was a beautiful video. I wish you a year filled with happiness and lots of love. Happy New Year.

Leslie said...

Happy new year! I hope that 2011 is a wonderful year and brings you lots of happiness and fulfillment! Your writing is very inspirational and I look forward to reading your blog in the new year!

Erin said...

Happy New Year! I pray that next year is a million times better than last year for you and filled with happiness.

Amanda said...

Happy New Year to you Katie! I hope this year brings you amazing things. You are such a wonderful and inspiring person!!

Marla said...

Very cool video! See, you have lots of things to be happy about in 2010. And you just proved it!

Happy New Year! May this year bring you even more happiness! Baby-happiness! :)

amiracle4us said...

Happy New Year K...I pray 2011 brings you more happiness, love and dreams coming true! xo

JC said...

Happy new year!!! Hope 2011 is much better =). I loved your video!

amiracle4us said...

Oh and the song is perfect....I heard it a few weeks ago and it made me smile thinking about the babe I haven't met yet :)

Kim said...

I loved your video, great pics and lots of memories, lots of smiles, and most importantly, lots of love. Wishing you all of that and more in the new year Katie. Peace out 2010.

Randi said...

Looks like the video won't show for me - at first I thought there was just blank space, and was kind of sad about it. I think your plan for 2011 is a smart one. The only sane thing to do is to try and live emotionally one day at a time. I don't know any other way to be happy. Wishing you an amazing new year of lived days. <3

A said...

I am setting goals and hopes for 2011 that just include living well, too. For the first time ever, my hopes do not include a baby. I can't bear to be sitting here a year from now, wrong again.

ifcrossroads.com said...

This is the very best post that I've ever seen.
I'm not sure if you meant for it to be, but it is. I love it
Happy New Year my friend. Happy New Year.

someday-soon said...

Great video! I know it's been a tough year and hope you have a very happy and healthy New Year and 2011 treats you well =)

rebecca said...

Happy New Year, the video was filled with what looked like many happy memories. Your dog is adorable BTW! Hoping that 2011 does indeed hold good things for you guys and most of all dreams realized and fulfilled!

Stephanie said...

Love that video!!! And I'm right there with you - I'm not setting goals that I can't for certain attain. I hope that we're pregnant next year at this time, but if not I don't want to be depressed about it all over again. 2011 I want to enjoy life with my husband and reignite our marriage so sex isn't just the BD anymore ;) Happy New Year's Friend!!! :) No matter what, 2011 will be better than 2010!

Noelle said...

That was a wonderful video. What a sweet, beautiful family you have. Your hubby is very handsome, and your dog is so precious and cute that I just want to squish him/her in my arms!

May the next year bring many wonderful things for you.

Glass Case of Emotion said...

Great video Katie! Happy new year to you, love your spirit and message this post.

Kakunaa said...

:( I gotta find a computer to watch on! My phone won't let me see it :( Happy New Year sweetie.

Rach said...

Great video!! It was a good year minus infertility. Happy 2011!

Stefanie Blakely said...

I smiled through this whole video... despite the heartache that you have faced this year, you and Joey certainly are lucky in love... so many beautiful memories together! So much love to you, sweet girl. Happy 2011!

suchagoodegg said...

Awesome video. I love reading what you have on your mind, Katie. I hope with my entire heart that 2011 brings you much more joy and happiness, and much less heartache and pain. xoxo

lowfatlady said...

Happy New Year! I hope 2011 brings you happiness in many forms.

Trisha said...

Great video! Happy New year!

Littlest True Blue said...

Love the slide show! So beautiful. Despite all of the shit of 2010, it is wonderful that you have these wonderful photos and memories documented as well! Stay happy girl!