Monday, September 27, 2010

cycle #30

I appreciate the continued discussion, and - for the most part - civilized behavior of everyone involved in the debate about IVF in relation to the "a" word. That's all I will say here about it. There's no need for me to beat a horse that is already dead.

Moving forward.

AF arrived in full force yesterday after two full days of spotting. I'm paying the price for missing acupuncture this month, because she showed up with a raging headache, cramps, and enough bloat to float me to Cuba. I made an acu appointment for Thursday, so hopefully that helps. The weekends in October will be less crazed, so I'll be able to fit in some appointments. With school, work, and driving to Gainesville every weekend for football games, my free time is limited these days.

Joey and I also had our first "what's next?" discussion since deciding to break away from treatments four months ago:

January 2011: Yearly pap / follow up with the breast lump issue. This will be with a new gynecologist, since the one I saw this year has since relocated to the Panhandle. I may or may not ask for blood work at this appointment. I haven't had my FSH tested since early 2009, and I'd like to see where it's at now.

Summer 2011: If we don't see any results from the acu or if I do get b/w done in January and it comes back looking not so hot, we'll go back to the RE for follow up tests - most importantly, an SA for Joey and an u/s for me.

We want to make sure that, in a year, nothing has progressed to a breaking point. If it has, we'll reconsider IVF or maybe doing more IUIs. I don't know, and I'm not going to make plans until we get to that point. It's a strange struggle for me: loving the freedom of no appointments and the way my body feels off of medication, but desperately wanting to know what's going on inside of us and hoping that things aren't taking a drastic turn for the worse.

One step at a time. That's all I can manage.

20 comments:

AplusB said...

Yes, one step at a time. Sounds like a good, smart plan.

Rebecca said...

I think this sounds like a very good plan. Keeping track to make sure things haven't given you a time limit, yet, is a good thing and will keep you from going kinda crazy... :)

Crossed Fingers said...

I think your plan sounds wonderful and totally reasonable. I am sorry to hear AF is back in town though - total suckage. I'm excited to follow your journey, see how it all pans out.

Rach said...

I've noticed in the past few months since our IVF I'm starting to feel normal. I think waiting has been very helpful for me both physically and emotionally.

I think you plan looks great! Baby steps.

Secret Sloper said...

One step at a time is a good way to get somewhere. I'm considering holding off on treatments until January, too. Something about a new year makes me feel like I have lots of time. Thinking about trying to get pregnant in 2010 makes me feel sick.

Melissa G said...

Your struggle reminds me of what we went through earlier this year. Trying to justify taking a much needed break from medications, and TTC and ART, all the while knowing this break means you'll be waiting that much longer for a baby... No easy feat. (And we were deciding between IVF and more IUI's, as well.)

I will say however that break, while difficult at times, was/is a very good thing for us. I've been able to find a lot of peace while taking the time to nurture myself and my marriage. It sounds like you have a very good plan in place. And we'll all be here to help you through, until you're ready to move forward again.

Hugs.

Stephanie said...

Good game plan, Katie! Enjoy these moments off meds, I know I'm enjoying my break in IUI cycles! January and then summer will be here before we all know it!

Conceptionally Challenged said...

One step at a time sounds really good. Right now I feel totally lost at all the possibilities (mainly of things that could be wrong). But you're right, taking it one step at a time we can do it.

Browniris said...

I think that sounds like a really good plan! Enjoy your time away from appointments and treatment.

christine said...

That's the best way to approach things, day by day, cycle by cycle. No need to rush yourself or make yourself crazy!

serenity said...

What got me through our journey was remembering that for us, it was a marathon, not a sprint. And that we would resolve our infertility one way or another.

It's a good plan.

xoxo

Hayley said...

Sounds like a great plan! xo!

Kelly said...

This sounds like a great plan. :)

Kakunaa said...

I love your header :)

Plans are good; so is giving your body a break and taking things one day at a time. HUGS.

someday-soon said...

Sounds like a great plan! I know what you mean about wanting to know what's going on inside. I always said that they should be able to install a little window in your belly so you could watch the egg leave and time things perfectly =)

JC said...

Sounds like a good plan. And I love your new header to, really cute!

jensays (whatwouldjendo) said...

sounds like a great plan, and with minimal stress at the moment. i know the months i didn't have appts or anywhere to be or shots to give myself were pretty good months.

Kandid Kelli said...

i L-O-V-E your header!!!

S.I.F. said...

I think this non-plan sounds like a perfect plan for now lady... sometimes you just need a breather.

Negative Nelly said...

Sounds great to me. I can't imagine. I'm on cycle 3 of meds and already... I'm already looking forward to no Clomid for just one month. Hoping for a peaceful, drug free month or so for you (and your partner:) I feel like I should give you a red drug free ribbon right now...