In the back of my mind, I always had a feeling that IUIs wouldn't work for us. I can't explain why, really. Maybe you could call it the infertile woman's intuition. But I think that is why I had such peace letting go of the last IUI. The timing would not have been right for me with work and time off, and it felt like such a waste of money when we could be putting this toward other things.
Our original plan was to do a shared egg or shared embryo cycle with another couple. This way we would save money (since another couple would share the cost) and we would also be giving back to someone who so desperately wanted a baby, too. Unfortunately, this is not going to happen--at least not at any clinics in our area. Some are not willing to do this for us, and the rest think we could be waiting for years for another couple to agree since most would prefer to adopt all of our embryos.
I want to wait six months, but I don't think I could wait a full year (possibly longer) with the chance that we may never get a couple to do this with us.
So, we'll do one full cycle. Alone. $15,000 (ish). $15,000 we don't have and we don't want to finance all of it.
Insert the grand scheme here, for Joey to get a job with a company that offers IVF coverage. He gets the job, I get on his insurance, and when December rolls around I can start popping BCPs in preparation for getting pregnant. We'll see how well this brilliant plan to cheat the insurance industry works in this economy, where trying to get a job is like trying to get pregnant when you're infertile. But hey, at least that also buys us time to save money in case we do need to finance part of this.
In the meantime, I have an acupuncture consult tomorrow at noon. I figure I may as well channel my energy into some alternative, less-expensive method of increasing my fertility. Not to mention helping my relax. Let's face it--we all know I need that.
I'm not going to lie. Part of me says, "Screw it." We could take that $15,000 and spend time in Europe. Or go sit on a beach where someone serves us drinks for two weeks. Because I just don't understand why.
Why do I have to BUY my chance at having a baby?