Tuesday, May 25, 2010

mad world

This morning I went back to the breast surgeon. I have been experiencing some discoloration and pain in my breast--not limited to the area of my incision where the lump was removed. My breast has also been getting harder. It's not scar tissue and Dr. O doesn't know what it is. He just knows there is another mass there (to the right of where the original mass was) of some sort.

I go back in next week for an ultrasound. Last time, the ultrasound and mammo showed nothing and we didn't see the lump until I had an MRI. This time, they will do the u/s and then an MRI if necessary, skipping the mammo step.

This morning, I also got a BFN. I don't know if I am going to do the last IUI if AF shows. But I am not in a good place right now to make any type of decision about anything.

41 comments:

Britt said...

I am so sorry. I don't have any other words, but I AM praying for you.

Kandid Kelli said...

I love you.

You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am here if you need anything at all & soon I will actually BE THERE when you need anything. Please dont hesitate to txt/email or CALL if you just want to cry or bitch. I will listen.

xo
-K

suchagoodegg said...

Oh Katie. I can't even imagine how this is shaking up your world. Biggest hugs ever. Praying and hoping with all of my heart that everything is okay.

Al said...

F*ck.

This effing sucks, Katie. I'm so sorry for the BFN and another lump. I will be thinking about you and hoping that this lump is once again nothing but I am pissed off that you have to go through all of this again. It's just not right. Huge hugs.

I wish we lived closer and could split that bottle of wine.

someday-soon said...

Oh sweetie, I'm sorry {{{HUGS}}}

AplusB said...

Oh Katie, I am so sorry you have to deal with this again. Praying everything is ok.

A said...

oh gosh. i am so sorry for this news and be assured i will be praying for you. i dont even know what to say- i am speechless and i'm sure that is nothing compared to how you're feeling right now (HUG)

Just Me...C said...

I am so sorry sweetie. I know that there are no words to help you feel better, but I care. And I'm sorry.

JC said...

Oh my gosh!!! I'm so sorry Katie, and so mad at the world for you! Really, I want to punch something and cry. This is not fair at all. I'm praying everything is ok and praying for you and Joey. I hope you guys have an extra great time in NYC. And I'm thinking about you. BIG ((HUGS))

Littlest True Blue said...

Shit and shit. I'm so sorry! Take care of yourself today!
LTB

Rach said...

Sorry about the BFN and the new sypmtoms you are having. I hope they get these tests done and everything looks ok. Best wishes and thinking about you.

Stephanie said...

Katie, I'm so sorry. It stinks. And I wish I could do something or say something to make it all better for you. As always sending prayers and hugs!

Rebecca said...

Oh, this just sucks. Im so sorry about this katie.

Ashley said...

I'm so sorry Katie. Thinking about you today.

Katie said...

Well, both things suck and I hate to hear it all! :-(

Hang in there, honey, and try to at least enjoy those bloody marys in the airport this weekend.

Maureen said...

Come on universe, enough is enough and Katie needs a break!! Thinking of you and saying a prayer that everything is ok.

Marla.z said...

Katie, I'm so sorry to read this. *hugs to you* I'll be thinking and praying for you.

Crossed Fingers said...

Oh crap...this is not good news. :( I'm so sorry you've got so much on your shoulders right now. I hope everything is OK *hugs*

Basic Girl said...

I'm so sorry Katie. This just effing sucks, and I hate that you have to deal with the lump all over again, ugh. So frustrated for you hun, hang in there. We're all thinking about you.

Jessica said...

Oh my godness..you can't catch a break!! I know there is nothing I can say to make any of this better. Just know we are all here for you. ((HUGS))

Candidly_Andrea said...

Oh Katie - you are in my thoughts. I'm so sorry you have to go thru all this. I hope this dark place opens to the brightest place imaginable.

T said...

This is so flippin unfair!!! F*** F*** F***.

Noelle said...

I am so sorry. It breaks my heart to read your posts, and it is just so unfair. I pray that everything will go well and that everything will turn around for you. I wish I had words of comfort for you.

Anonymous said...

I'm so so sorry. I am thinking of you. You have been through so much already and I can only imagine how this must feel like one more insult added to injury. You are so strong and I really believe that this too shall pass and yield to something great. It sucks waiting for something great to happen though in a world of no guarantees. I know . Please take it easy, indulge a little, focus on the good things in life. That's what gets me through the tough times.

-Astrid

Jen said...

I'm so, so sorry you have to deal with this again after you thought it was done. ((HUGS)). I really hope everything is okay. Thinking of you

Kelly said...

Katie, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for it all. I hope that getting away with J will help take your mind off things, at least for a little while.

Arlyne said...

Seriously God....enough already!!!!! Sending you all the love & (((HUGS))) that I have!!!

xo

Amanda said...

I will definitely say some prayers for you. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Hugs!!!

The Baby Race said...

Hoping it all turns out okay. So very sorry you have to go through this again :(

Pre-Heated Oven said...

Oh no :(
I'm so sorry. That sucks big time. I'm thinking of you, and keeping you in my prayers.
HUGS

Glass Case of Emotion said...

This does not sound like a good day. :( I am thinking of you.

JL said...

I am so sorry you are going through so much. Stay strong!

ICLW

http://just-two-lines-away.blogspot.com

2catdaughters said...

I'm sorry, Katie. I wish this wasn't happening. Please know that I'm here for you. (((HUGS)))

Ashley said...

I am so sorry!! Sending you huge hugs. :(

Nicole said...

Oh no Katie... :( What a horrible, awful, terrible day. I'm sorry for all this bad news ((hug)) I hope you can find some little bit of peace as your anxiously await your appt next week and as you decide about the IUI

erika said...

Oh, noooo:( I am very sorry.
I am praying and hoping the lump is not a lump, but maybe a sign of something good coming your way.
FX for a second line!!! I am still pulling for your cycle.

Secret Sloper said...

I'm so sorry. This is too much for one person to handle. It's gruesomely unfair.

I hope the procedures are as easy as they can be and your results are perfect. You're in my prayers.

Jem said...

Just found your blog via ICLW! So sorry you are going through all this at the same time. Wow.

Jem

http://ambivalentwomb.blogspot.com/

S.I.F. said...

Katie, my heart is breaking for you! I just don't even know what to say, except that I am loving and praying...

Dawn said...

This just sucks. I'm so sorry! Sending you many hugs.

Waiting Lisa said...

Thinking of you.