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Tuesday, April 6, 2010

year 25

Today, I am one year older.
Today, I am three days into my 24th cycle of trying to have a baby.
Today, I have a clot in my uterus.
Today, I start Femara.
Today, I feel helpless.
Today, I am still not a mother.
Today, I am 25.

29 comments:

A said...

oh, HUG. hope your hubby gives you an extra birthday hug!

Just Me...C said...

Happy Birthday Katie. I hope you enjoy your day! Make the best of it.

Rach said...

So sorry you are bummed. I hope your day gets better. Happy Birthday!!

Al said...

*hugs*

Happy Birthday! I hope 25 is the year you become a mother.

Crossed Fingers said...

Happy Birthday! I hope year 25 is your year!

Maureen said...

I hope you have a happy birthday. It's your turn to have the best year ever!

Dawn said...

I'm sorry this birthday has been a bit of a bummer so far. I hope this is the year that you become a mother.

Rebecca said...

Happy Birthday! I'm wishing you SO much happiness this year.

What's happening with the clot in your uterus?

ifcrossroads said...

Oh sweetie. ((hugs)) and Happy Birthday wishes. I desperately hope that by your 26th you will have a different story to tell.

Littlest True Blue said...

Happy Birthday...I wish I was 25! Cheer up!
:)LTB

suchagoodegg said...

Year 25 is going to kick year 24's ass. Just you wait. I know it will!!!

Stefanie Blakely said...

Today, you are my friend & I love you.

The Millers said...

I want to say Happy Birthday, but I don't think that is what you want to hear.
Do something very special for yourself today. YOU are the only person that can truly make yourself happy.

Ashley said...

Happy Birthday! I hope today turns out really special for you!

Kelly said...

Today, you are 25.
Today, you are one year older and wiser.
Today, we all celebrate what a strong and supportive friend you are.
(((HUGS)))

2catdaughters said...

Ditto what Kelly said.

Sending you lots of birthday hugs!!

JC said...

I hope you have a nice night tonight, and I hope next year your list is the opposite and you have a baby. ((hugs))

AplusB said...

((((HUGS)))) my birthday is in a few weeks and rather than being a celebration it feels more like a reminder that another year has gone by that I'm not pregnant. Happy birthday, sounds like you had a nice celebration this past weekend and I love your dress if your previous post. You are adorable!

nicolemarie said...

I know today sucks. Trust me, I get that it's hard to have a "happy" anything when nothing seems right.

But...

Today, you woke up next to the love of your life.
Today, you woke up period.
Today, you were showered with love from the people around you.
Today, you have the chance to learn from your mistakes.
Today, you made it another year through all of the shit and all of the bad and you are here.

It doesn't seem right to celebrate when you feel like you have to be happy for, but there's always something to be grateful for... there's always something that makes your life worth living every day. If not for what that day will bring you, but maybe for what tomorrow will bring. You never know when it's your time to shine :) Don't lose sight of what's still out there!

*hugs*

Rachel said...

It's so hard not to evaluate like that. I hope you have a great birthday!

Alice said...

Birthdays are tough, just like the holidays, and other milestones and reminders. Hope you got some love and laughter in there somewhere. Hugs to you.

Trinity said...

Happy Birthday, Katie! Hope your 25th year brings you lots of sparkly, happy things. :)

Noelle said...

I hope that 25 will be a MAGICAL number for you!!!!

Happy Birthday!!!!

S.I.F. said...

Happy birthday! Mine is in a few days - gotta love a fellow Aries!

JL said...

Happy birthday!!!

Waiting Lisa said...

Birthdays and infertility do not go well together. It's tough.

I really like this post though. Not that you were sad, but how you expressed yourself. I really love reading your blog.

Holly said...

I feel like a jerk for not posting this yesterday, but Happy Birthday! I hope 25 is the year all your wishes come true *hugs*

justine said...

Today is a day to celebrate *you*, and all that you *are*.

*hug*

Basic Girl said...

So I'm way behind on my blogging but at least I didn't miss your bday on twitter!!! But happy belated my friend, I'm hoping so hard this is your cycle...and in a week you'll have a beautiful follie (or two)!! And 25 totally sounds like a great age to get KU, this is your year!!!