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Thursday, April 29, 2010

jury is still out

There is a very faint line. Actually, I wouldn't call it a line. That's being too generous. I'd call it a shadow of a line--that's how faint it is. I stared at it for about 5 minutes, then made Joey come in and stare at it for another 10 or so, as if it was going to sprout arms and legs, stand up, and shout out "You're (not) pregnant!" We held it up to the light and it's still there. I wish I could get a picture of it, but it's so light, I don't think it would show up.

Of course, that was my only test: a cheap, standard, Walgreens pee stick. I am going this afternoon to buy digitals and I'll test again sometime tomorrow morning.

I don't know what to think. Part of me has a glimmer of hope, but the other part of me thinks, "Well, it could be chemical." or "It really could be just a shadow or a faulty test." I also have some light cramping. Overall? I'm not convinced that I'm pregnant.

So no congratulations. No cheering. No excitement. Just waiting.

39 comments:

Ashley said...

Ok well my fingers are crossed for you!! :)

Kandid Kelli said...

a 'shadow'... faint line... what have you is better than a flat out neg... right? ilu -- good luck

:)

I like to keep it positive around here. You know that

xo
-K

Hayley said...

I have everything crossed for you! xxoo

Kaitlin said...

I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you, doll. This is it!

someday-soon said...

Did the line have color to it? If so that's sounding SOOO exciting =) I can't wait to hear when you back it up with a FRER dye test or CBE digital!!! BTW, I had lots of AF type cramping from the time I got a BFP until about 6 weeks. GL!!!

WannabeMom said...

So excited for you. Really hoping this is it! Fingers crossed!!!

Dawn said...

Sending you lots of luck! I had cramps too, and thought it was bad news. Thinking of you and keeping my fingers crossed for tomorrow.

Tillie said...

fingers and toes crossed for your retest tomorrow! *hugs*

Rach said...

Agh!! The worst is being in limbo. Hope you have a more definitive answer with the tomorrow. Good luck!

Rebecca said...

Keeping so many things crossed for you. So hoping for a definite positive tomorrow!!!

Jen said...

Ugh...faint line....hmmm...

Cramping is good though! I had lots of that. Thinking positive thoughts!

Ashley said...

I've got everything crossed for you too. I look funny walking around with my legs crossed, but I think people just think I need to pee. :)

Best wishes...hoping that the digital SCREAMS pregnant at you tomorrow.

Have a good day!

Marla.z said...

*fingers crossed* =)

Al said...

Ugh...I hate the limbo what the heck is going on period. Not fun.

Holding out hope for you, Katie. Everything crossed over here you have more (definitive) good news tomorrow.

Kim said...

I am feeling optimistic for you. I will refrain from doing a happy dance until we received confirmation of your BFP later. xoxoxoxoxoxox

suchagoodegg said...

Okay, I will honor your wishes and not jump up and down....yet. Have so much hope for you my friend!!!!!!

Arlyne said...

I'm waiting right here beside you! (((HUGS))) sweetie!!!

2catdaughters said...

You know I am rooting for you with every fiber of my being!!

GOOD LUCK!

Katie said...

OK. Fine. I'll follow your wishes and NOT get excited. I'll NOT be screaming inside my own head right now. I'll NOT be saying a little prayer of thanks. I'll NOT be saying another little prayer for the bean that might be.

Yes, ma'am. I'll NOT do any of those things.

I'll just say 'LOVE YOU LOTS!!!'
:-)

Just Me...C said...

I got a neg at 13 dpiui and then bfp at 15dpiui. I didn't test at 14b/c I was so sure it would be another BFN. As a matter of fact, I tossed every damn book I had on ttc etc. I was done. Have hope. I think its possible hon. I really do, especially since you can already see a faint line.

Waiting Lisa said...

I am pretty sure ANYTHING there counts as a positive. But, okay, I'll keep quiet and wait for you to get more tests :)

HURRY UP!!! hehe

Secret Sloper said...

Oh my God! Fingers crossed (actually fingers wrapped around each other three times!). Sending you gooooood wishes.

Britt said...

I am quietly jumping up and down (but don't tell anyone!) Sending prayers for BRIGHT, DARK, VERY obvious lines tomorrow! And I think the cramping is implantation! That's what I think!

Stefanie Blakely said...

Hoping with everything I have!

Thinking of you and can't wait for tomorrow.

Stephanie said...

OH my goodness! Good luck, prayers and blessings and positive vibes. I know your frustration - faint lines all week on OPKs, with CM - ugh am I or aren't I and just missing the surge!? Stay positive!! Can't wait to hear more

Anonymous said...

a line is a line!

best news I've had all day,
M : )

ifcrossroads said...

Is there ANY possibility for a beta tomorrow morning with your RE?
... sitting on my hands with baited breath. That's all I'm sayin'.

Glass Case of Emotion said...

PLEASE take a First Response Early Response or a digital. It may just be too early.

I will keep the positive thoughts up for you.

Basic Girl said...

So I KNOW how you are feeling right now, and it sucks. What there really a line, am I crazy, googling images of "faint bfps". I did it for about two days!! Don't freak if the line doesn't get darker in one day, it took me at least two days before hubby and I actually agreed there even was a definite line. And another couple before it was actually dark. So take it day by day, but I'm hoping with EVERYTHING it gets darker tomorrow. Thinking of you Katie!!!

Lisa said...

Hope is good. It's positive.

It's not easy to have to wait until the next day for confirmation, I know. How are you going to sleep tonight? Send me a DM @yourgreatlife if u want any suggestions for balancing hope and risk. I'm happy to help if I can.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow, as will all the other commenters! You have a lot of support behind you, whatever the outcome.

Lisa

Pre-Heated Oven said...

Hoping. And praying. And waiting with you!

Kakunaa said...

Fingers crossed. Leaving it at that. (((HUGS)))

Erin said...

Ohhh, the waiting is the worst.

Now, I never believed this when people told me, but I swear it's true. The early pregnancy cramps feel EXACTLY like period cramps.

Keeping my fingers crossed!!!

Bean stalk ballads said...

Ok Katie.. I am waiting this one in with you girlfriend.. come on double lines!!

Jen said...

I'm waiting with excitement!!!

JC said...

I have a lot of hope for you and everything is crossed for a clear + tomorrow. Then we have to get together so you can rub your pregnant vibes on me, lol. =)

Katie said...

Keeping my fingers crossed!!! The waiting and the unknown are sooo hard!!!

Leslie said...

I hope you see darker lines when you test next. Mine started out the same way and I even had a negative in the morning with a + in the afternoon on 14dpiui. My fingers/toes are crossed for you.

erika said...

This will be it!
Much love your ways.