I’m feeling a little better today. I needed time to grieve and regain my composure.
My husband is a healthy 32-year-old. He takes daily fertility vitamins. He eats well. He’s in great shape. He drinks lots of water and hardly ever drinks caffeine or alcohol. He has never smoked a day in his life.
None of that explains why none of his sperm are moving rapidly, almost half aren't moving at all, and about 3/4 are abnormal, leaving us with somewhere between 2 and 4 million "viable" swimmers which are moving poorly or are not moving forward.
I’m not going to ask the obvious question of why this is happening. I can’t because we’ll never get the answer to that question. The fact is we have no control over this. As we both agreed last night: It sucks, but it is what it is.
They will retest in the next couple of weeks. Hopefully the numbers will be better. If they aren’t, we’ll discuss options after my LAP. Obviously Femara + natural is most likely out. I imagine it will be Femara + IUI or maybe injects + IUI for a limited number of tries before IVF? Who knows. I’m trying not to speculate too much. As my husband likes to remind me, I am not a doctor. (Thank God for that.)
So, for the time being, I’m trying not to think about how to afford IVF.
I’m really, really trying.