Before the new year kicked off, I started a Day Zero list (thanks for the inspiration, Jin!) and one of the tasks is to list 100 things for which I'm grateful. Since I haven't really been in the best frame of mine these past couple of weeks, I decided to go ahead and start my list of 100. I figured I would do this on my blog, partially as a way to keep track and partially as a reminder to myself that not everything in life is terrible and gloomy. These first ten are in no particular order.
1. My husband: He's not perfect (he might argue otherwise), but he's just about the most wonderful man on the planet. I think we all sometimes forget that our husbands are hurting in this mess, too, so I'm striving to better understand his perspective on our situation and how we should handle it. It's a process, but I'm working on it. I just hope he knows how much I love him and how much I can't wait to make him a father.
2. My family: I have a great family that's been so understanding and supportive of our situation since we decided to share the news that we were infertile. They are also very excited about the house and have been helping us a lot these past few weeks as we get ready to become homeowners.
3. My puppy: Okay, so he's nine years old. But I can still call him a puppy! Harley has been around since I was in high school and I really missed him when we lived in Nashville. He's a miniature dachshund so sometimes the barking drives me crazy, but I know I can always count on him to cheer me up when I'm having a rough day.
4. My friends: Both near and far, in real life and the ones I've made through this blog and through TTCYFC. You are all amazing people. To the ones in real life, thank you for not shying away from my infertility. To my IF friends, someday we will get our miracles.
5. Wine: Yes, I still drink wine. I gave up coffee (sad face) and wine when we found out about IF, but got back on the wine bandwagon after I had several doctors tell me it was okay and that it might even help me relax since that's pretty much what I use it for. I have a glass about every other night. I only used to drink Merlot, but now I love pretty much anything: Cab, Shiraz, Riesling. My new favorite? Moscato.
6. Chocolate: Specifically, dark chocolate. Shacking up at my mom's house the past few months, though not ideal, has been great for my dark chocolate fix. She always keeps a bowl of it in the house. I try to limit myself to one piece per night, but sometimes I slip. :)
7. Living in Florida: Not that Nashville was so bad, but living where flip-flops are mandatory and the sun is almost always shining does wonders for anyone's mind. Even though the past few weeks have been rough, I'm generally a happier person here. Plus, our family and friends are here and my job isn't nearly as stressful.
8. Our new home: Finally, a place where we can UNPACK BOXES! We haven't lived in one place for more than a year or two since we've been together, so this will be a nice change. It makes me feel fortunate that we were able to buy in this market. And I'm thankful for the long way we've come since February last year with one of us unemployed and not knowing how to pay our bills.
9. My job: It isn't the most glamorous job in the world, but it's a job. Editing is not something I want to do for the rest of my life, but I am grateful to have a paycheck to take home when so many people do not. Having Joey out of work for almost six months made me appreciate this even more.
10. Sports: Yes, I can be grateful for sports! :) I grew up in South Jersey, so my "professional" sports affiliation aligns with everything Philly: Eagles, Phillies, Flyers . . . except for basketball. Living in Orlando for so many years, I have become a pretty big fan of the Magic. And of course I love Gators because I went there. I will watch almost any sport, though. I'm actually really excited for the Olympics to start.