Monday, April 27, 2009

infertility support

For a while, I was seeing a counselor here in Nashville, but I didn't feel like she really understood my issues and insecurities when it came to TTC. So, when we move back home, I am going to actively search for someone who specializes in what I'm going through.

It's time I wake up and smell the coffee:

I need help.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

bitches and babies

Maybe I shouldn't have wished for AF. She is making me SO sick this cycle. Last night was unbearable. I had the worst migraine of my life. It started coming on right after dinner, around 7:30. By 8:30, I was a complete mess. I could hardly catch my breath and I was incredibly dizzy. I laid down and managed to fall asleep until about 1:30. After that, I was up until almost 5. It was a nightmare. Men don't realize how easy they have it! But Joey was really great. He stayed up and took care of me all night. I know he is exhausted today. I dropped him off at the airport this morning. He has another interview in Orlando tomorrow, then he flies back here on Saturday.

My boss gave birth to her baby yesterday, and I went to see her today in the hospital. I'm happy to say that I did alright. And it's official: My HSG is scheduled for a week from tomorrow, Friday, May 1, at 9 a.m. Let's just hope it doesn't turn out like my dream (more on that in a later post).

Sunday, April 19, 2009

where is AF?

Where are you, you old hag?

I was hoping she would show this weekend, so I wouldn't have to feel sick at work (since CD1-3 often leave me feeling like I've been run over by a truck). But, as usual, the bitch is holding out on me.

Sometimes, I wish I was a man.

Friday, April 17, 2009

here (physically)

I will be a better blogger. It will be my April resolution.

Joey is still without a job, though he has another interview in Orlando next week. We need all of the job vibes we can get at this point. I was sent interview questions and an editing/copyediting test from a magazine in Orlando. I sent those back on Monday, and I'm still waiting for a response. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but I also need to stay positive. Joey keeps reminding me that it took them over a month to respond to my application.

Still waiting for AF to arrive so I can move on to cycle #12 (yikes!) and my HSG. I've had some cramps, but other than that, no signs of her. And who knows when she's going to show up anymore. She has a mind of her own.

My boss is officially on maternity leave. Today is her second day out of the office. My nephew is all set to arrive sometime this month, too. All of these babies bring on mixed emotions for me. I'm so happy for everyone, but it still hurts. If we had gotten pregnant when we started trying, our child would be two months old right now. It's hard not to think about.