Friday, December 4, 2009

another one bites the dust

The last thing I wanted to do was bring this fight into a third calendar year, but it looks like that might happen.

Yes, I got a BFN this morning.

I'll still go for the beta on Tuesday. If it's negative, like I suspect, we'll take December off then reassess in January (meaning: we'll decide if we want to continue with our clinic).

Please don't comment on here that you "know" Tuesday's beta will be great and that I could "still be" pregnant. I do not want to hear it. I'm not trying to be negative, I'm just protecting myself.

At least it's Friday.

23 comments:

2catdaughters said...

(((hugs))), Katie.

A said...

I completely understand about wanting to protect yourself- I am the EXACT same way... will be praying for you :)

Rebecca said...

I'm so sorry for the BFN Katie. Many (((Hugs)))

JC said...

I'm sorry Katie. ((hugs))

Elizabeth said...

I'm here if you need someone to talk to ((hugs))

Jessica said...

I'm so sorry...this is so heartbreaking!! ((HUGS))

Al said...

*hugs*

Jin said...

BOOOOOOOO.

I like the trying to protect yourself.

nicolemarie said...

Sending lots of well wishes and thoughts your way this weekend :)

(HUGS)

Hayley said...

I love you! hugs!

Katie said...

I'm so sorry. :-(

Kelli-Sue said...

I am sending you hugs many many bear hugs this friday Katie! xxxx

Jen said...

((Hugs)))

IF Crossroads said...

Sonofabitch! Damn it Katie, I'm so so so sorry! This SUCKS!

Astrid said...

Ugh, sorry. It hit me the other day too that this cycle is my last chance for the year. Last chance to give DH a baby for xmas (or at least a positive pee stick). Also my last chance to 'announce' the news at my dad's retirement party which would be a blast. Or announce it at my mom's birthday brunch. So many opportunities, it would be nice not to miss them, but I'm a realist like you and although it's only 4dpo for me, i'm not optimistic this cycle.

i_c_thru_u said...

****hugs**** I'm sorry hon. :o(

Bean stalk ballads said...

Katie, I am really sorry. Sending some caring vibes your way... and always here to listen

Nicole said...

Oh Katie, I'm sorry. I completely get the self-protection mode,;I think we all do. I think your plan for if the beta is (-) is a good one- take the holidays off and recharge a bit, then reevaluate. ((HUGS))

Kelly said...

((((HUGS)))). I'm so sorry.

Jen said...

Sorry about the BFN. It was always easier for me to set myself up for disappointment. It's hard to handle every month.

Erin said...

Lame. I'm so sorry.

And I totally understand about not wanting the positive comments. Sometimes we just need to steel ourselves against the inevitable hurt.

I'm hear if you need anything!

Stefanie Blakely said...

There's such a sense of defeat as another year passes. I'm so sorry.

I really wanted to put a baby in DH's arms during his 40th year... He'll be 41 in April. Now I'm just praying for a BFP by then.

Thinking about you.

Tina said...

So sorry...and I completely understand trying to protect yourself. Sending you a hug.