Thursday, November 26, 2009

endure, not enjoy

I am writing this from my place on the couch after Thanksgiving dinner. I am writing this because I have no way else to cope with the emptiness I feel today. Stirrup Queens has been open on my phone and I keep rereading Mel's note and saying to myself, "Endure, not enjoy."

This is not easy. But I will get through this. I think.

13 comments:

Jin said...

I know exactly what you're talking about. Just got to get through Christmas and New Years and it'll be somewhat ok.

JC said...

I'm so sorry Katie. Only 4 more weeks till the "holiday season" is over with and it'll hopefully get better. Thinking of you!

Erin said...

I just got back from a Thanksgiving where I had to hear all about at least 3 different teen pregnancies and new babies. I get it.

Hugs.

Bean stalk ballads said...

Katie you will get through it and we will be here for you....

ifcrossroads said...

The holidays just suck when you are infertile. I can't believe we're living this hell for the second holiday season in a row. It seems so unfair.

A baby for Al? said...

You will get through this! And I hope it will be the last holiday season you only endure and not enjoy. *Hugs*

Astrid said...

Oh gosh, what a downer. The holidays have taken on a whole new meaning since we got married and started failing to make a baby. If it's not inquisitions, it's advice, and if it's not advice it's thinly veiled hints. Holidays are a time of safety-in-numbers for the rest of the family to harass the childless. Hopefully you endured the rest of your day successfully, one major holiday down, just a couple more to go this year.

Kelli-Sue said...

I am sorry. I hope besides that saddening conversation, that you had a good and delish thanksgiving!!

Heres a question for ya...Whats your fav thanksgiving food?? I would say mine would be my grandmas stuffing--Hers is better then any kind I have ever had before! & How did your pie turn out?

Jessica said...

I feel the same way!! I love family get togethers but it is SO hard to see everyone else with their children especially when that's all anyone talks about.

Rammi said...

*hugs* Hoping the holiday season passes quickly for you.

Katie said...

UGH. Sorry, but I'm glad to hear you have a "mantra." :-) Hope today was better!
((hugs))

Laura said...

Wandering in through IComLeavWe. Hope today is better for you.

Kelly said...

I'm with you. I wonder how long until we will "enjoy" it again?