Wednesday, October 21, 2009

welcome, ICLWers!

I’m an ICLW virgin, and I guess I will start off by sharing my story:

My husband, Joey, and I started TTC right after we got married (in May 2008). We had been together for nearly five years and we knew we wanted to start a family. I was so naïve. I honestly thought it would be three months, tops, before we got pregnant. Obviously, I was wrong. By February 2009, I was jaded and heartbroken over our lack of success.

During my routine gyno exam that month, my doctor asked if we were trying to get pregnant. I said yes, and she agreed to start testing. After a 4.5 cm cyst on my left ovary, cervical dysplasia, and less-than-stellar SA results, Joey and I weren’t feeling much better. So, we decided to move back home to Florida. We were living in Nashville, TN, several states away from our family and friends, and with everything upon us, we were ready to come home.

We finished testing in May, moved home and started new jobs in June, and had our first RE appointment earlier this month. I wish I could say that we know more now than we did in February, but we really don’t. We are still waiting for blood work results, but PCOS is virtually out. My RE suspects endometriosis, but multiple sonograms, ultrasounds, and an HSG show that it’s not causing any abnormalities in my uterus or on my ovaries, and my tubes are open. And, as far as we know, I do ovulate sometimes.

Right now we are getting ready for IUI#1. I finished my last dose of Clomid yesterday and I have my next u/s this Friday (10/23). If all goes well, IUI#1 will be early next week.

My emotions go through waves. I went through a long period when I was very angry, but now I’m stuck in sadness and guilt. To say that this process has been a rollercoaster is an understatement. I’m a planner by nature, and it’s been a challenge to come to terms with the fact that I have zero control over my body and what it decides to do.

I think that pretty much covers everything. I’m looking forward to “meeting” lots of new people this week!


S said...

Good luck with your ultrasound Friday and your first IUI. Hope it will be the only one you will need!


karlindaadoption said...

Nice to meet you, and welcome to ICLW. Most of us have been there with the roller-coaster emotions, so we know what you're going through.

Good luck for the u/s, and here's hoping the rest of the process is successful.

Jin said...

Nice to "meet" you and I hope everything goes well Friday!


JC said...

I hope this is THE month for you!! And glad you moved to FL =)

Cherish This Life! said...

Good luck with the new steps! I have to agree about the roller coaster ride, I just wrote a post about that today. Hormones/emotions are not fun sometimes!!! Anyways, It is nice to "meet" you!


Justina said...

Best of luck tomorrow! And I think that all of us going through the IF journey can relate to the roller coaster ride.
Great to meet you!